Giuliana took a big step

Last night some friends and girlfriends came over to my place to have a drink and we got carried away with the shots, one of my friends wasn't in condition to drive and I told him stay asleep, he agreed without drama and fell asleep on the living room couch, I went to my room and we started playing around, between kisses and laughs I told my friend if she could call my friend and all red-faced said yes, so I called and when he entered the room found her in bed with the word pussy, turned over right away asking for forgiveness and I say no way, are you excited?? He looks at me and says you're messing with me?? Posture?? And then just got close and I lived the most beautiful and morbid experience of my life, my girlfriend with two blowjobs in her mouth, it was amazing to see how they sucked each other's lips until the last name, oral sex made a 69 that even my friend doesn't make as tasty, seems like they wanted each other before, I'm wondering why she didn't want him to penetrate me, I don't know if it was because of shame (which I was serving on a platter) or what but he said he'll prepare well for the weekend and we'll get it up however God wants. Now comes the big question: am I still in love with her and wanted someone else to feel what I'm feeling, since I'm her first boyfriend and never tried another cock. Is what I did wrong??