Remembering my ex

Many times I remember my first boyfriend. I loved having sex with him, he was separated, but he treated me so well... I recall one time we were in a park and on one of the benches, I was sitting on top of him, and he slowly put his hand in my blouse while kissing and caressing my breasts, then starting to kiss my nipple until it got hard, and I started getting wet. That way for a bit, sometimes we'd just stop there. But there were three times... Once in a room he rented after biting my nipples, he would put his hand in my pants and start rubbing me slowly but quickly until I was totally soaked. Then he'd push through my clothes and penetrate me with one finger, two, and rub me super hard. Uff, I still get wet thinking about it. There was another time when he promised to just touch me with his penis and that's what he did, until I couldn't take it anymore and asked him to. He put it in slowly and then really hard until I started moaning from pleasure. But there was another time where while he was having sex with me, he would caress my anus slowly and excite me so much until at one moment he started licking and inserting his tongue. Uff, it was so tasty. However, the day came when I realized he made a mistake and put his head in without wanting to, I don't remember it hurting, but you could tell he was very hard already and soaked with my juices and saliva. I felt a lot of shame, morbidness, and super pleasure. It was beautiful.