Lust and desire

It was August 16th, 2022, my life was as normal as it had always been, with my partner (Perla) at the time already having two years, I'm currently 32 years old, my relationship with Perla has always been full of ups and downs, fights over many things, money, insecurities or simply due to differences in opinion, I was tired of her and it showed a lot, many times I sought to be away for at least some time when I felt the need for a break. My mother (Tina) is 52 years old, she's been single since my father left to live in the United States with promises of a better life, which never came, my mother has visited him many times but says her life is here regardless of whether he's not with her, well I have a brother named Pedro who left at the beginning of last year, leaving just me and my mother alone, back then I moved in with her because I didn't want her to be alone, which as you can imagine affected my relationship with Perla. My days were heavy, not due to work, not due to the hot climate, not due to society, it was Perla, I felt trapped, I felt like I was in that relationship out of habit because I no longer knew if I even loved her or not, total confusion. One day after work, on August 16th last year, Perla asked me to come over for dinner, I was exhausted because I had worked Saturday and Sunday the week before, I didn't want to know anything about anyone and least of all Perla and her constant demands over anything that existed, I told her I wouldn't be coming, I needed rest because even my eyes felt like closing while driving home, she as usual exploded against me telling me I should be grateful to be with her, filled my ears with obscenities until I couldn't take it anymore and hung up, since then many messages have been arriving but I decided Don't take my phone for the rest of the day. When I got home, my mother was sitting in the living room watching her novel, and when she saw me totally defeated, she stood up and asked what was going on, I told her everything that had happened with Perla and that I wanted to go to sleep, she said sit down and eat but I said I'd lost my appetite and preferred to sleep, I went upstairs and threw myself onto the bed, then she came in and asked if everything was okay, she's a very kind woman, always trying to help others feel good with her words, that's what I was looking for, she sat at the foot of the bed and looked at me intensely, tell me what happened, I started unloading on her about everything Perla made me feel, when I told her I felt a moment of clarity and understood that the truth was a very stupid problem, if I was wrong it was just a matter of ending it and moving on, however my mother talked to me about her situation with my father and how no matter how much she knew he'd never come back, she always stayed firm, that's where I questioned her about it, she said yes, she often felt lonely and as a woman she felt abandoned, especially because she had remained faithful to her marriage and never sought to be with another man, I was impressed because it was a topic we never discussed, although I asked her she avoided the subject. After some minutes of talking to her, I started feeling much better because I understood what path I should take, I got up and gave her a kiss on the forehead for listening, she smiled and blushed and just said she loved me and that all she wanted for me was happiness, after that I told her I'd go take a bath and when I came out we'd have dinner together, she left the room and I went to the shower. When I got out, I went downstairs to eat, everything was already set up, in fact, she did it at the head of the table, giving me my place as the man of the house, at that moment I didn't understand but it was the sign she gave for what would come next. we were having dinner and started talking about many things, it was a very pleasant moment for both of us, she told me about many things from her daily life while at home, she talked about many people when she worked (she's retired from government) even when there was no food left on our plates, we stayed sitting there, just the two of us talking. After dinner I got up and cleared the table, she said to leave them, that she would wash them, I said no, who cooks doesn't wash and drew a huge smile on her face, 'your father never thought like that' she said to me, I turned around to look at her and shyly told me he was a great man, after that I went to wash the dishes and when I finished I said I would go to bed to review some things from my small business, numbers and stuff. As I sat on my bed with my computer between my legs, I started feeling sleepy, looking at the clock I saw it was already past 11pm, I closed my laptop and went to my mother's room to wish her goodnight, knocked on the door but she didn't respond, decided to enter and she wasn't there but I heard the shower and only got close enough to tell her I was going to bed, she responded that she was fine and to have a good night. Already in my room and as usual, I closed the door and took off my clothes, I usually sleep in boxers because it gets cold at night, I like feeling it on my skin, lying down and almost falling asleep, I hear my mother knocking on the door, I get up as fast as I can and look for my short to put it on, open the door and it was her, 'what's going on mom' I asked, she said she just wanted to wish me goodnight, I said the same and then wondered if I was more relaxed now than earlier in the afternoon, I told her to come in and that I was already much more focused on what I had to do, we both sat down on the bed and waiting for a chat I leaned back a bit but it was there when I felt That small pain in my lower back that I had been carrying for weeks, she realized it and asked me what was going on, I told her it was a small pain but not serious, lie down, let me see she said, I got on my stomach and she started giving me a timid massage where it hurt, it made me feel very good to have her hands on my body, during that moment I started feeling a lot of sleepiness and relaxation, however, being on my stomach with my penis pressed against the mattress, I couldn't help but start getting a small erection, not fully hard, that small moment when something excites you a little and your penis wakes up, do you know what I mean, well, I was at that point, she suddenly asked if I already felt better and I said yes, however she started giving me the massage higher up on my back and I won't lie, it felt so good to have her soft hands on my skin, it was like remembering and reliving those first times of contact with my partner, it was impossible not to get excited, I felt like her hands were touching me with such delicacy as if she intended to take me to that point of excitement, but how could it be, it was my mother who was talking about, then I told her I already felt good, that if she wanted she could stop, she took her hands away and I rolled over onto my back, I thanked her for what she had done for me and she said she only wanted to make me feel good, it was then that she started touching my abdomen, not that I have a well-defined one but since I take care of myself and don't have a big belly, I felt pleasure and at the same time a sensation that ran through my whole body, so much so that I let my head fall back while closing my eyes, I know she notices, she realized that small lapse of pleasure was coming from her hands, again, I couldn't help but react to my penis on its own, I felt like the tip started rising and with the short I was wearing it was totally noticeable, I lifted my head and for a small second felt her gaze in that area. From my body, however she didn't stop, kept touching me and it was then when I told her I wanted to sleep, she got up timidly from the bed with a smile on her face, the same one she showed that same evening at dinner, unmistakable. When she got up, I sat down on the bed to hide my erection, she told me she loved me and hoped for a pleasant night, that she'd see me in the morning, left the room and closed the door, I won't lie, I was excited but also very confused, you know those moments when we usually have crazy ideas related to sex, and we see them as possible, inside my head I thought, what if it was an invitation, what if she's asking for something more, at the same time telling myself I was crazy, it was just my mother, it was only that, I was so confused I lost all sleep, spent almost 40 minutes thinking about possibilities but with a huge erection under my boxers, I had to know what was going on, had the crazy idea of going to her room and finding out if my suspicion was real, how could I stop myself, it was a mix of lust after weeks without sex and the twisted reminder of what had just happened, I remember getting up quickly and sitting back down on the bed, my mind was a disaster, I didn't know anything. After giving it a lot of thought, I made the most accurate decision I've ever made in my life, got up from the bed and went to her room because I needed to know what was going on, clear it wasn't the final word, had an excuse to tell her I wanted a pill or something for back pain, as I approached her door, noticed the light was off at the bottom of the door, thought maybe it would be better to go to sleep, however in that moment I didn't know if it was my mind playing tricks on me or the reality of things but I swore to myself I heard a noise coming from inside her room, gathered my courage and slowly opened the door, pushed it slightly and then I understood the truth, they weren't my ideas, it wasn't something I was inventing to deal with my personal problems, it was something real, something she also felt and accepted, when I entered her room I found her in the most pornographic position I could have imagined, lying face down with her legs spread apart, completely covered by the light of the moon that was passing through the window of her room, totally naked body and mind, masturbating with her right hand fingers and holding a tank top with her left hand while smelling it, seeing her penetrate herself while feeling my scent, I quickly realized that this garment was mine, it was the highest point of excitement I've had in my life, without lying even after what happened afterwards on that night, seeing her put her fingers so deep that I couldn't help but have one of the biggest erections I've ever had, it was totally impossible not to take out my cock and start masturbating while watching her, listening to her moan as I thought about it, it was the trigger for me to explode and fill her door and floor with semen in that part of her room, when I finished she only covered herself with a sheet and fell asleep right in the same position, her vagina still dripping with that delicious fluid while sleeping, it was incredibly exciting and pleasant to feel like it was the desire of such a beautiful and sexy woman. After finishing, I only went back to my room and slept like a baby, fresh and with a huge smile on my face, how could something like this be happening to me, the one who had never been lucky with women. The next morning when leaving my room, my mother was making breakfast for me, I went up to her and gave her a big kiss on her cheek, she smiled at me and turned around to look and said good morning, my love as if I were her wife, without knowing what had happened the night before, truly I understood that better times were coming and I was totally willing to risk everything for it. By the way, that same The day ended with Perla, the curious thing is that throughout the whole moment I didn't stop smiling, it was involuntary, I never imagined having the energy to listen her tell me how little man I was, nothing mattered more, all I had in mind was one thing.