Ayuda para cogerme a mi mama

I'm 18 and I'm an only child. For a long time, I've had fantasies about my mom having sex with me and I only see mommy-son porn because of their divorce, she takes pills for stress and depression that help her sleep and thanks to that I can enter her room to masturbate while watching her but it's been different lately since she caught me watching her breasts and ass, sometimes she's in the living room watching videos about women's masturbation on loudspeaker and sometimes she hugs me and kisses me on the mouth telling me I'm the only thing she has then there was a night when she woke up and saw me masturbating in front of her and all she said was to go to sleep but the following nights, every time I entered, she had less clothes until she fell asleep completely naked and also does it during the day and tells me not to worry because she knows the human body and if I want to be naked, it's okay too. I have so many desires that I started doing other things like masturbating next to her in bed at night ¿NEED HELP TELLING MY MOM TO HAVE SEX WITH ME? obviously I don't want to do it while she's asleep because that would be rape, she crying told me she'd do anything for me if only I say so but I'm afraid this is too much for her that's why I need help pls.