Closet queen enjoying on the train

Traveling on the subway and train. Not always but many times I get harassed... and I let myself, of course. I don't know if I have a gay face (I'm a common-looking man with a masculine appearance). Sometimes they look at me or come up to me as if they knew I was gay...I recently got on the subway, arrived with just enough and almost ran in, it wasn't very full. Behind me, a boy with a backpack on his back also almost ran in. I looked up and saw him looking at me sideways. Discreetly, I looked down and noticed a huge package between his legs, I had never seen a package like that before. He was wearing a fine fabric pant and it showed off the cock that was positioned downwards. IMPRESSIVE. It seemed like he was carrying a sleeping animal between his legs. It looked extremely large and just seeing it made me wet all over.He was lying on his side and noticed he was approaching me, I responded with my hand as best I could and managed to get it hard. It turned on immediately and swore, feeling its cock so hot and so giant that I got scared. But the heat that invaded my body didn't let me think and I no longer cared if someone noticed us and looked at us, I was ready to suck it off in full subway... obviously I wouldn't do it, but the heat that grabbed me made me blind.
We went down together to combine with the train and we started talking while walking through the corridors. He was Venezuelan, very young and full of energy, just arrived from his country. We got on the train and as soon as it filled up he passed his backpack in front of him to cover and I put my hand under his pants. I can't express with words how beautiful it felt like that cock (my hand almost didn't close because it was so thick) hard, and recontracaliente. An incredibly soft and huge head. It may have been one of the hottest moments I experienced in my life. I wished he would grab me right there ahead of everyone. Honestly, I had a nearly blind desire to bend down and put his enormous cock in my mouth. And the Venezuelan didn't tell you. He adjusted his pants and pulled it out. Now I was touching it more comfortably but still couldn't jerk it off hard, I had to do it very discreetly, so my movements were soft and slow. I kept on happily touching and touching, caressing, feeling that smooth and hot skin, feeling the contour of a cock that almost without seeing it I can assure you was perfect. And before reaching the third station I felt it getting harder, it got even harder still and then came cum warm. It ended like a savage. I couldn't come suddenly because it would have caused a serious commotion. As I could I tried to move, but my hand remained full of cum. He adjusted himself as best he could and we kept going, me with my hand all sticky and him with his pants all wet. In the atmosphere started feeling that unmistakable smell of man's cum.
When I got off the train, I saw I had a kid goat in my pants. I wanted to die, the guy filled me with cum all over, with all the energy, I think if he really caught me that I would split my ass open, I would break everything.
I'm promiscuous from the closet, married and feel guilty. I have the guy's cell phone but don't dare call him, I really like him. What do you think I should do?