Cross-dress fantasy

Hello to all! After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to fulfill my fantasy. Since I've always fantasized about being a man's woman since I was 20. When I masturbated, the head of a friend who one day in my youth was looking at porn magazines with me and getting hot would stop and show me his penis...I was caught off guard and could only look and laugh, but it was big and thick and erect. Logically, nothing happened because he didn't hint at anything and I didn't dare say anything to him about it. Today I'm 50 years old and still remember it, but I don't know what else happened to him. But today I want to meet a man who is kind, caring, good, etc...and treats me like I'm really a woman. Logically, I would love to dress up as one, meaning in a dress, stockings, high heels, corset, makeup, lipstick, wig, etc...and depilate completely. And logically, to feel full, we could go somewhere away from other people's gazes for the weekend and enjoy that relationship. Call it a farm, field, etc... But well, I hope to meet a man like this someday. I mention that I'm slender, 1.80 meters tall, dark-haired with canas hair, short white beard.