I call myself Sebastian, I'm 38 years old. Married, with kids and a lovely life. But since I was 16, I've always had a strong attraction to sex and masturbation. This led me to watch and explore different types of porn.
I remember watching a porn magazine (yes, magazine, we're talking late 90s), seeing a woman blowing cock, and asking myself If she likes it, why don't I? That was the starting point for everything that would come later.
At first, I only looked at breasts, they got me hot because they're so beautiful, but I didn't find men attractive at all. Until I got to transsexuals, and that's when I started liking the combo.
It wasn't long before I started putting my fingers in her booty and other things. But I didn't dare try anything real. I masturbated, but when I came, the thrill was gone.
That changed at 21, when I had an encounter with a transsexual girl, from which I left ecstatic. I left with the certainty that I liked cock, but at the same time thinking that I'd already tried it and wouldn't do it again.
Obviously, I didn't pass what I thought, and I kept trying with some more transsexuals. I loved sleeping with women with cocks, but my head was also advancing in morbid thoughts and masturbation, and I started seeing it as a real possibility to sleep with a skinny guy.
At 26, after some chats and the support of a friend, I dared to try with a skinny guy who invited me to the hotel. I already had experience with transsexuals, but this was something else. The thrill, the heat, is another thing.
It was my first kiss with a man, which was kind of ugly, but the sex was good. They sucked me off, and it ended in my face for the first time.
I left happy, confirming that I really liked cock, but strange about the kissing and certain discomfort on my part. But that didn't stop me.
At 28, I tried again with another skinny guy, we just did oral sex. It went very well, but something wasn't closing. And soon after, I had encounters with a transsexual girl, which was amazing. One of the best sexual experiences of mine. my life. (NOTE: Everything I relate can be read on my profile in other stories!) At that point, I met a woman with whom I ended up being boyfriend, husband, and father of children. And I'm still with her. During 9 years, we didn't do anything with flacos, transsexuals, or cuties. But during those years, lust and morbo increased. In those years, my interest in men was increasing, and chatting a lot, I learned about the concept of SAUNA. That blew my head off and my morbo went to heaven. During a long time, I meditated the possibility of going. In my 20s, I had tried to go to Zoom (Cruising bar) but never made it in. After several months, maybe a year, I took the decision to go to the sauna and try again with men. That was a one-way trip. Inside there, I rediscovered bisexuality, I realized that all men turned me on, my taste went beyond cock, but I looked at the whole combo. I discovered I got hot from foreign masculinity, and not from feminized or feminine men. I left that first visit, fascinated, knowing I would go back. And subsequent visits, making my own thing in my mind and tastes, even becoming passive aversive. This last year, I completely assumed I'm bisexual. Few people know I had gay experiences, my wife knows I was with men, but nobody knows my current situation. I feel a lot of pride being bi, for having dared to try and enjoy sexuality. Thanks to this year's experiences, it is that I write this, these reflections I'd like to share for those who are transiting or transit the same. Each person is a world, and each person has a different sexuality, and if this text helps or accompanies someone, better. 1.- In my case, sex with men didn't make an impression on my taste for cuties, on the contrary, I like them more than before. I love enjoying both bodies, feminine and masculine. 2.- When being with men, especially as passive, I discovered the pleasure of surrendering. Generally
As a hetero macho, you're the active one, but even so, you're just a wimp who doesn't do anything, and you're penetrating. Whether it's oral, anal, or vaginal sex. As a rare hetero, I don't often feel dominated, or so vulnerable that something from another person enters me.
This act of being on all fours or arched while sucking, somehow gets me closer to what a woman feels during sex, where she lets herself be penetrated for pleasure and is usually dominated.
And this reinforces my liking for them even more. It made me feel like sharing that feeling makes them more attractive.
3.- As a bisexual, I enjoy men and women who are also bisexual. I think it's beautiful when people liberate themselves and enjoy sex. Especially when they experiment with people of the same-sex, which isn't easy if you live as hetero. I enjoy images of men with men and women with women, but I enjoy talking to other bisexuals even more, and sharing experiences.
4.- I always say that most men fantasize about being somehow with another man. Most never make it happen, others do. And among those who do, there are fans of the cock, who don't care what's behind them, and those who look at the combo. This was a surprise and revelation for me that I'm attracted to masculine men. When I realized this, I started looking at men on the street differently.
5.- I don't feel less manly for being bisexual; on the contrary, I feel more male and more virile. Even my self-esteem shot up! My perception of myself changed, and I felt more secure in many ways outside of sex itself.
6.- I regret not having experimented more when I was young, not giving in to fear and social pressure. But I also understand that it was the path I had to take to accept myself.
This sets the tone for me, and my ability to empathize with those who feel oppressed for being gay or lesbian.
7.- I admire and get really turned on by bisexual people in general, men or women. (In fact, I would love to talk more about bi women, to get to know that side of bisexuality).
Probably there will be more to reflect on and deeper, but it'll stay for another story.
By the way, most of what's been related can be read in my profile in other stories.
I remember watching a porn magazine (yes, magazine, we're talking late 90s), seeing a woman blowing cock, and asking myself If she likes it, why don't I? That was the starting point for everything that would come later.
At first, I only looked at breasts, they got me hot because they're so beautiful, but I didn't find men attractive at all. Until I got to transsexuals, and that's when I started liking the combo.
It wasn't long before I started putting my fingers in her booty and other things. But I didn't dare try anything real. I masturbated, but when I came, the thrill was gone.
That changed at 21, when I had an encounter with a transsexual girl, from which I left ecstatic. I left with the certainty that I liked cock, but at the same time thinking that I'd already tried it and wouldn't do it again.
Obviously, I didn't pass what I thought, and I kept trying with some more transsexuals. I loved sleeping with women with cocks, but my head was also advancing in morbid thoughts and masturbation, and I started seeing it as a real possibility to sleep with a skinny guy.
At 26, after some chats and the support of a friend, I dared to try with a skinny guy who invited me to the hotel. I already had experience with transsexuals, but this was something else. The thrill, the heat, is another thing.
It was my first kiss with a man, which was kind of ugly, but the sex was good. They sucked me off, and it ended in my face for the first time.
I left happy, confirming that I really liked cock, but strange about the kissing and certain discomfort on my part. But that didn't stop me.
At 28, I tried again with another skinny guy, we just did oral sex. It went very well, but something wasn't closing. And soon after, I had encounters with a transsexual girl, which was amazing. One of the best sexual experiences of mine. my life. (NOTE: Everything I relate can be read on my profile in other stories!) At that point, I met a woman with whom I ended up being boyfriend, husband, and father of children. And I'm still with her. During 9 years, we didn't do anything with flacos, transsexuals, or cuties. But during those years, lust and morbo increased. In those years, my interest in men was increasing, and chatting a lot, I learned about the concept of SAUNA. That blew my head off and my morbo went to heaven. During a long time, I meditated the possibility of going. In my 20s, I had tried to go to Zoom (Cruising bar) but never made it in. After several months, maybe a year, I took the decision to go to the sauna and try again with men. That was a one-way trip. Inside there, I rediscovered bisexuality, I realized that all men turned me on, my taste went beyond cock, but I looked at the whole combo. I discovered I got hot from foreign masculinity, and not from feminized or feminine men. I left that first visit, fascinated, knowing I would go back. And subsequent visits, making my own thing in my mind and tastes, even becoming passive aversive. This last year, I completely assumed I'm bisexual. Few people know I had gay experiences, my wife knows I was with men, but nobody knows my current situation. I feel a lot of pride being bi, for having dared to try and enjoy sexuality. Thanks to this year's experiences, it is that I write this, these reflections I'd like to share for those who are transiting or transit the same. Each person is a world, and each person has a different sexuality, and if this text helps or accompanies someone, better. 1.- In my case, sex with men didn't make an impression on my taste for cuties, on the contrary, I like them more than before. I love enjoying both bodies, feminine and masculine. 2.- When being with men, especially as passive, I discovered the pleasure of surrendering. Generally
As a hetero macho, you're the active one, but even so, you're just a wimp who doesn't do anything, and you're penetrating. Whether it's oral, anal, or vaginal sex. As a rare hetero, I don't often feel dominated, or so vulnerable that something from another person enters me.
This act of being on all fours or arched while sucking, somehow gets me closer to what a woman feels during sex, where she lets herself be penetrated for pleasure and is usually dominated.
And this reinforces my liking for them even more. It made me feel like sharing that feeling makes them more attractive.
3.- As a bisexual, I enjoy men and women who are also bisexual. I think it's beautiful when people liberate themselves and enjoy sex. Especially when they experiment with people of the same-sex, which isn't easy if you live as hetero. I enjoy images of men with men and women with women, but I enjoy talking to other bisexuals even more, and sharing experiences.
4.- I always say that most men fantasize about being somehow with another man. Most never make it happen, others do. And among those who do, there are fans of the cock, who don't care what's behind them, and those who look at the combo. This was a surprise and revelation for me that I'm attracted to masculine men. When I realized this, I started looking at men on the street differently.
5.- I don't feel less manly for being bisexual; on the contrary, I feel more male and more virile. Even my self-esteem shot up! My perception of myself changed, and I felt more secure in many ways outside of sex itself.
6.- I regret not having experimented more when I was young, not giving in to fear and social pressure. But I also understand that it was the path I had to take to accept myself.
This sets the tone for me, and my ability to empathize with those who feel oppressed for being gay or lesbian.
7.- I admire and get really turned on by bisexual people in general, men or women. (In fact, I would love to talk more about bi women, to get to know that side of bisexuality).
Probably there will be more to reflect on and deeper, but it'll stay for another story.
By the way, most of what's been related can be read in my profile in other stories.
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