Slowly a slut

I'm married 38 years old bisexual . I met a friend about five years ago who invited me to parties that were getting more intense every time, taking everything and even things I never imagined taking, which became an addiction. And for whatever reason, I wanted to go back to those crazy parties again. My friend had two other girls and six guys who knew how to make us do anything they wanted. First, they'd give you drinks and if you wanted more, you had to be a slut for them about anything and every time it was more and more until they'd even exhibit me if I didn't want to go back until I complied with what they wanted. And again and again I went back to that and it was a terrible morbo and adrenaline and I felt like a slut and at the same time, I liked what was happening . The thing is that it got out of hand and I ended up with nothing and wanting all that again. So if some people take things here I am. If they give likes, I'll tell you what happened in those sexual parties.