First time with a gay guy

This passed a few days ago, I know a gay boy who has been making waves for some time and sent me photos but we only got that far, the thing is he invited me to take him in my house and said yes, I had other intentions, not just breaking it but feeling like a slut on his cock, I went to bathe, depilated everything, put on boxers and long socks, I was anxious and started masturbating while watching porn, arrived at 23 hs, we went to my room, I was very nervous, he wanted to kiss me but I didn't let him, then he touched my cock and sucked it, got into a tremendous ass, I put the condom on and started fucking him, he asked me to slow down, later he asked us to touch our nipples but all my intentions of feeling like a slut and getting my cock sucked disappeared because it was very small, later I put him on his side by the edge of the bed and filled his Booty with cum, unfortunately everything I had planned didn't happen, it was my second time going with those intentions and nothing, the previous one was with a transvestite in a hotel, also very small, so until this day I still carry that feeling of being a femboy.