My presentation and my sexual problem

Hello, how are you? My name is Magda (my feminine name) and I'm currently a boy, I don't consider myself female or anything like that even though I've had times when I wanted to see myself more feminine. I'm 21 years old and from Argentina. I had some experiences as a submissive and obedient boy, it's exciting to feel that sensation but several times I told myself that these things were wrong and in the end I left everything, not just that but also eliminated all my photos of me as a girl. It's been several months, almost a year since the last time I dressed up in women's clothing. I've never been with a man or known as males, if I was with active transsexuals, 2 to be more specific jeje (I'll tell you how my experience with them was later). My preferences will always be for transsexuals, although it wouldn't bother me to get to know a dominant woman who wants to play with me. Currently, my sexual life is null, my only 2 sexual experiences are over a year old and now I'm very dry. In this year that I've been away from all that world, I didn't know what path to take when it comes to sex, whether to forget about sissies and be a man or if I should try to go back to the sissy way that I've seen so much. This is only my thoughts on sex, since it's the area where I have a great existential doubt. If you read this, I would like you to give me your opinion and why, that would help me rationalize and take the best path.