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CHAPTER XV
Despite having a horrible night, after taking a shower and eating something, I was finally able to sleep. I needed it.
I think I was a bit more calm already.
I had decided to do everything possible to forget everything that had happened. But this time, seriously.
Accepting my guilt. With all that came with it. Doing it as it should be done.
And also understanding that the responsibility was shared. That I didn't control everything.
No longer could I keep living with those thoughts and new panic attacks I suffered.
Because they were panic attacks...
Never in my life had something like this happened to me, nor having heart problems.
It was madness!
I know we walked a long path to get where we were.
It wasn't just a simple mistake. We made decisions, went through extensive moments, had daily thoughts about what we wanted to do and not do.
And despite sometimes doubting, we ended up doing things that weren't ours. That didn't belong to our essence.
Yes, always said we were very hot-headed, sexual. But the limit we had crossed was too far away.
I think there were many things to mend.
But truly. Doing them for a legitimate reason. Not because of guilt.
I didn't have to act out of guilt. This one had dominated me completely during the last months. It had taken total control of my life.
And that had to end...
Some days passed in which I thought and thought about many things.
Of course, Mara didn't speak to me. I preferred not to... neither. Until I was 100% sure of myself, that my judgment wasn't affected by those horrible thoughts, by those damn memories, I didn't want to have contact with her. Yes, I thought about Sabrina too. I missed her. But at the same time, I was very hurt because she left me and just went away without even saying a word to me. Maybe what she said wasn't that true after all. I wanted to be alone. Recover as much as possible from my affection, train. I was living on the edge all the time. With my head racing 24 hours a day. That wasn't working for me. Obviously not. And I suppose temporary isolation in my house could help quite a bit. I also thought about Mara. I won't deny it. I didn't know what I felt... Wanting her, I wanted her. It was obvious. But there were also feelings of anger and disappointment that cost me a lot to leave behind like that. That's why I believed it wasn't fair to her for us to see each other at least not for the moment. She was someone very special to me. The woman of my life, with whom I thought I would marry and I wasn't willing to show her an image of myself like the one from last time. No matter how much had passed, I believed Mara didn't deserve a treatment like that. And those were unusual days... Never had spent so alone. At my old house, there was always some brother around. Instead now, the house was a silence that deafens you. It was Thursday and they asked me to take care of some contracts at work. I had to bring them to the studio that represented an insurance company, for them to sign, for it to be homologated in court by the judge. End of damages and losses routine. I lamented a bit because I would have to deal with Capital's traffic, but well, seeing it from another angle, I was going out a little, to vary. I had to put on formal pants, shirt, and suit. I had already forgotten what it was like to dress formally with so much pandemic. But I must admit that I was really fond of that kind of clothing, je. In the end, I got dressed and went there. As it was obvious, given the long road ahead of me and the dense traffic, I had enough time to think while listening to music. Of course. A thousand things were crossing my mind. I think we all unconsciously seek to feel sadder when we are sad. We want silence, to be alone, to listen to depressing music. It's rare, as Dr. Barassi would say, but it is so. Indefectibly. And this time, it wasn't an exception for me. Until recently, I thought I'd get married... God, what a madness... Then came that terrible chaos that ruined everything. How could that happen? But it wasn't all. No. There was more. I had become too close to Sabrina. And how... I don't know what was going through our heads at the time, why we played with fire like we did, putting everything we had at risk. But what I felt for her was genuine. We understood each other only through gestures, just like I did with Mara. Not to mention her beauty, which dazzled me every time I saw her. We had something special. That's what I believe. And yes, it's inexplicable. But also true that I started wondering if I was in love with two people. Because I know I feel anger and disappointment with Mara. But I'm not sure if I've stopped loving her completely. And I know I miss Sabrina with all my soul too. It's curious. And very hard to bear. To make matters worse, she also felt something for me. Something she was willing to sacrifice for her friendship with Mara. And that's when the mess started in my head. I loved Mara crazily. There was no doubt about it. But what was happening now? I also felt like I loved Sabrina... The trip became super short while I was thinking so much. I looked for a parking spot on Viamonte to leave the car. Luckily, there wasn't too much crowd in the center and it wasn't too hot. I walked until I reached to the building of the study, I had to go to the sixth floor, where it was located.
What a rare thing it was to return after so many months. I could say that I even enjoyed wandering around...
I entered the central hall and put myself in line for the common elevators. Due to the pandemic, access to them was quite limited, so I would have to wait a while there. Two people at a time were allowed, and there were a lot of people.
Since I had no other choice, I stayed waiting my turn.
I was standing there, putting on my earbuds to listen to the most melancholic themes on Spotify, when the sounds of high heels resonated throughout the hall.
By reflex, I felt someone approaching me.
Gently, they touched my shoulder.
The first thing that came to mind is that someone wanted to ask me something about the building. Some floor or where there was a bathroom. Who knows?
I never imagined who I would find there.
I lifted my head and saw her.
I felt like my heart was opening up in twenty pieces.
A dreamy figure stood beside me, looking at me with a face that showed some kind of sorrow. Or at least, that's what I thought I perceived.
A faint smile on the side wasn't enough to convey the weight that gesture carried.
I remained motionless. Totally disoriented.
It was Sabrina...
On autopilot, I took off my earbuds.
What was she doing there? If she was in Italy...
The words wouldn't come out. I couldn't believe it.
So much had I thought about her and now she was right in front of me.
Was this real?
SAB: What are you doing here?.- She exclaimed with some nervousness.
I, still in limbo, answered:
YO: I'm coming to Thompson and Associates to sign a contract.-
The envelope in my hand began to sweat due to the sweat pouring out of my pores. I looked at her trying to figure out if what my eyes were seeing was true.
SAB: Ahh. One floor above ours!
My incredulity was enormous.
I didn't understand anything.
SAB: Hi!
She greeted me with a kiss on the cheek.
It was Incredible to feel that characteristic perfume of hers again. God... How I had missed it. The people looked, since everyone was greeting each other with fists. SAB: Come! Let's use the elevator from my studio... - She said quite red-faced. I don't know who was more nervous, her or me. For a moment, I thought I was dreaming. It wasn't possible that I was seeing her. I followed her voice as if pushed by inertia, confused. She was dressed formally, with a long adjusted skirt and a white shirt, with some buttons undone. Her boobs were sticking out absurdly towards the outside. She had red hair, gathered, with a bun. She walked in front of me carrying folders in her hand. I couldn't help but look at that tremendous body she possessed. She looked infernal dressed like that. On high heels... YO: Weren't you on a trip?. - It slipped out of my mouth. I was still looking at her stunned. She had a face of something. I don't know what. But it seemed like she was afraid or ashamed to talk to me. She put her personal key in the elevator for it to come. SAB: Yes... I took some time off this week from graduate school and came back to do some things. - She answered with nervous eyes. She was beautiful. And that vulnerable look, it was splitting me in two. I had so many things to tell her. But I didn't know if I should or not. I was still in shock from finding her there. I nodded like saying ah, look. SAB: How are you? Me grabbed that feeling of shivering when you have cold and my throat closed up. YO: Fine, fine... And you? The door opened. I made the gesture for her to come in. Thanks she said timidly and entered. She had a crazy mess in her head. It couldn't be! I had found her! I was serious. Although I wanted to tell her things, I also felt anger about how she left without saying anything. My words weren't coming out too well, but in the looks we exchanged, we were saying a thousand things. Things like I missed you, sorry... My breathing accelerated a little. YO: You look very good... - It slipped out of my mouth. The truth is that I was moved by the situation and seeing her so nervous, it made me cloudy. SAB: Thanks... Said making a sidelong face. From the corner of my eye, I saw that she had glassy eyes. They were getting red. I was already arriving at my floor. The knot in my throat was suffocating. Maybe if I had arrived more cautious for the situation, I would have faced her differently. But it took me by surprise. Besides, she wasn't telling me anything either. She was mute, standing there. And visibly emotional. It was uncomfortable. I never believed we'd have an unpleasant moment together. It wasn't consistent. The elevator door opened. That's where I had to get off. I looked at her one more time. She looked at me with big, shiny eyes. As if she wanted to tell me something. I think I did the same. Swallowed saliva and didn't know what to do. See you later came out of my mouth. She listened and almost without voice, said chau. But it wasn't what her eyes were saying. I don't know why I didn't say anything. I don't know if it was anger, nerves or something else. But I left the elevator as if nothing had happened, as if Sabrina were a stranger. Before the door closed completely, I saw her let out a big sigh. With immense pain in my throat, I walked to the end of the hallway. What did I do? I asked myself. After so much time without seeing her, I wasn't able to say anything... Just as someone was leaving the office where I was going. Are you Jonas? they asked me. Looking confused, I said yes. You're coming for the agreement, aren't you? I have to leave urgently. Can we sign it quickly? they rushed to answer. I wasn't focused yet. My head had been disordered from running into Sabrina. YO: Yes, yes, give it to him.- I replied, taking out the agreement from the envelope, looking towards the elevator. I don't know what else he said. It was Thompson, who was supposed to sign it for me, but I didn't pay attention. All I know is that he signed it in the hallway and left. Little did I care about the messy situation. I felt like I was in outer space. I had left... pass up an opportunity to get answers.
I walked resignedly back to the elevator I had come from.
Then I remembered it was private use only. It would never open. And I touched the button on the one next to it.
What a fool I was.
She looked right at me! She searched for me to greet me and I didn't do anything.
I let her pass...
I knew I'd regret it. A lot.
It wasn't going well for me. Not at all!
It was incredible. But that's how it was.
It hurt to swallow. I was consternated.
Then the elevator opened, but not the one I had gotten in earlier.
I told myself it's over, I want to get out of here.
And when I prepared to enter again, there she was, once more.
Sabrina was still in the elevator.
I stayed stiff, standing at the door.
She also had a surprised look on her face. And her eyeliner seemed a bit smudged.
SAB: I never pressed my floor and it took me all the way to the 20th.- She laughed nervously.
Without saying anything, I entered again.
Once more with her. Once more by her side.
The aroma of her body made me do what she wanted.
I think I gathered all my strength and due to the little time I had left to say it, I put everything into one sentence.
YO: Why did you leave me like that?-. I said almost stuttering.
She opened her eyes wide and conveyed a very deep feeling.
It could be guilt, love, anything. But something was.
She stayed silent, not saying anything. Just looking at me.
We remained like that until the door to her apartment opened.
She put her key in the lock.
It took an instant, as if she was searching for how to respond.
Finally, she looked at me.
SAB: Do you want to take a coffee?.- She expressed with her clear blue eyes, as clear as the Caribbean Sea.
Of course I wanted.
I had waited a long time to see her.
I needed answers, I needed to hear her, be with her.
YO: Sure...-. I said taking a deep breath.
SAB: Let's go to my office... At this hour, there won't be anyone around, it won't be a problem...
She took out her key from the lock and left.
I did the same.
The weather was very unpredictable. It had been a long time since I felt so lost in the fog. As she was in that moment. In front of me, Sabrina was walking. Yes, Sabrina. The one who only lasted for seconds, I believed she was on another continent.
SAB: You see how Covid is... There's more silence than in a cemetery around here lately...
I tried to come back to myself and answered what came out.
I still couldn't conceive the idea that it was her talking to me.
YO: It was supposed to be vaccines...
SAB: Yes, but I also think there was a before and after with office work, don't you?
YO: Yes, yes... - I replied almost dizzy.
SAB: Well... It's here...
She opened the door and let me in. She held the handle so I could enter. Once inside, I felt the empty spatial climate of the room.
YO: You're not going to have any prob... - I didn't finish saying the sentence, when Sabrina hugged me as the door closed.
She did it very tightly, resting her head on my chest. With her hands, she held me firmly by the back and neck. My heart started beating excessively.
She breathed deeply, sighing. As if she had been holding herself back for a long time. It was obvious that I hugged her back too. I missed her so much.
I felt like her heart was also beating heavily. It was a very comforting feeling.
SAB: Sorry... Sorry... - She exclaimed with commotion.
Once more, the fragrance of her neck skin entered my respiratory system, igniting it.
YO: I missed you... Really... - I said trying to maintain composure, but not lying to her.
SAB: I also missed you. A lot. But you know how things are.
She was still leaning on me, as if she didn't want to let go. I felt like her breasts were pressed against mine. It hadn't happened in a while.
We stayed like that for a few minutes. I didn't want to let her go either. I couldn't believe it.
YO: But why didn't you even talk to me?
SAB: Because I couldn't... I didn't have the right. Forgive me...
I didn't know what to tell him in reality. I simply wanted to understand how she had disentangled herself from me, after everything we had... said I felt.
YOU: You're beautiful...
She moved a little bit, just back, with a grimace on her face.
The unbuttoned part of the shirt left me seeing the precious fold that her big breasts formed.
SAB: Your suit looks nice... - She said observing me.
I loved having her like this hugged.
Yes. My friend also felt the same way. I didn't mind if she noticed how happy I was to see her again.
I looked at her with many desires to eat her up right there. That's it. Regardless of what I felt about Mara. I wanted to swallow Sabrina whole.
SAB: Oh, I can't believe you're here, silly... - She exclaimed affectionately and went back to resting her head on my chest.
She made me sigh nicely...
That meant she wanted me too, despite everything.
YOU: I don't believe it either...
SAB: I'm a piece of trash, I know... But I needed to see you, hug you...
YOU: Don't say that... Nobody wanted what happened to happen... -
SAB: But it happened and even though I know I'll never have with Mara the relationship I had, she's my friend and I love her truly... - She seemed to be moved.
YOU: I know... I love her too. But I also love you... You don't know how hard it was for me not to see you anymore...
She squeezed me tight. We were both standing and hugging each other.
SAB: I'll never forgive myself for what happened. I already know we all were responsible in our measure, but enamo... - She stopped.
I took her cheek softly. I turned her towards me. Again, she put those tearful eyes like at the door of her house that night.
Her lips trembled.
YOU: We all did our part... That's why you're not to blame...
She was getting more and more excited. Like when someone is tired of being bad.
SAB: I also hurt you... I know it's my fault what happened to you... At least in part.- She lamented.
YOU: It's over now, I'm fine...
SAB: When I found out, I had a nervous breakdown... My sister took me where you were hospitalized... - She said with emotion.
YOU: Yes, I know you were there...
SAB: I wanted to die.- Me He said with guilt. And he raised his hand to touch my face. He made a gesture on my cheek.
The way he looked at me...
It was incredible, but we were still holding onto each other.
I smiled.
When I saw his expression, it seemed to be moved even more.
A tear fell from one of his eyes.
That's when I felt an urgent need to kiss her.
I don't know if it was right. I don't know if it was correct. But I was sure that it was something I had longed for a long time.
With my hand, I slowly turned his face towards mine.
His perfect face begged me to take away the pain that was bending him over.
I leaned in a little to do so.
But she pushed my face away, holding back.
I tried again, caressing her cheek with great tenderness.
She wanted to resist a little, but I insisted. I really wanted to.
I sighed so much that any defense mechanism she could use became obsolete.
Suddenly, she clung to my mouth.
Umm...
How long had it been... How many times I thought about that moment... None could contain their desire to kiss the other.
The sounds of kisses were coarse. It sounded like a wave, as our lips enveloped each other.
I let go of the paper on my hand and hugged her tightly.
ME: Aaww... Beautiful... umm chuikk...
SAB: Haa...- She was breathing heavily.
ME: I miss your kisses... Your smell... Your skin... Mmm.- I kissed her desperately.
When she heard me, she relaxed into sighs.
I held her by the butt. Firm and voluptuous.
I caressed her as if I hadn't touched her in centuries. She felt very special.
She was also caressing me all over my body with passion.
Her eyes were closed, slightly moist from some tears that had slipped out. But she couldn't stop eating my mouth.
I had many desires for her. I loved feeling how her tongue joined mine in such a brutal way.
I lifted her up into the air.
SAB: Aaaa...- She breathed deeply.
How nice it was to have her on top of me.
Mmm oommm muaak chuiik could be heard in the silent office.
I ran out the door with her on top. armchairs near the reception. SAB: Do you know what I missed?... Umm aahh…- It moved me how it was. They were true feelings from her part. Although she believed, deep down, that she was doing something wrong. That she shouldn't be doing it.
It transmitted her face, her tears. But it was very hard for her to contain herself. Like also happened to me.
SAB: I won't forgive you never, but, I love you, buddy… I love you! It was like an electric shock that hit me with all its force.
Her words loosened my entire body. YO: I also love you...- I answered, aghast...
We kissed each other more and more fiercely. Sabrina had me by the face, as if she wanted to make sure I didn't get away. She gave me kisses that killed me with tenderness. Slow, heavy.
She sighed uncontrollably. Tears fell from her eyes while she did it. She knew she was failing her friend. Her great friend. Very deep down inside her, she was sure of what she was doing with me, still being prohibited.
YO: Why are you crying, beautiful?... Ummm miaam chuuiik...
SAB: It hurts...- She exclaimed with deep sadness...
We reached the armchair and I fell heavily onto her on top of me. I leaned against the backrest.
SAB: I don't want to be this... I'm a garca...- She said, looking at me with tearful eyes, but not letting go of my mouth.
YO: Why?
SAB: You know why...
YO: Is it because you felt something? I also am doing what I feel...
I couldn't control myself either.
I kissed her neck, roughly. She sighed, caressing me, holding onto my hair.
I went down, kissing her white skin, until I reached her boobs.
I put my head in the neckline of her shirt and kissed them wildly. Like I was missing that skin... How many times had I dreamed of going back to touch it, to lick it.
I also felt guilty for what I was doing. I thought about Mara. I know it would hurt her...
But I needed to be with Sabrina. I don't know how to explain it.
From the beginning, there was something with her.
I didn't feel like I was cheating on Mara or doing something unforgivable. Maybe because of how things went down... That the three of us let it happen. I don't know, I'm rambling, but I wanted to be with her at that moment, no doubt about it. I undid all the buttons on her shirt while kissing her. Her skirt was almost up. The fine and delicate skin of her legs shone in front of me. Very nice... I caressed them with all the enthusiasm I had accumulated over the last months. And as if it were the last time I could do so. I opened her shirt and her beautiful torso was revealed to my view. A nice black bra covered her breasts, which showed some shine due to the kisses she had received a few moments earlier. Those divine freckles of hers... Hypnotic... I buried my face in them again, not without first sliding my hand behind her and releasing it. Now, only my face stuck to her tits was keeping her bra in place. Sabrina wasn't stopping from caressing me and giving me kisses all over the place. It didn't matter that we were in her office, her workplace. She knew nobody would come, that we were completely alone. I grabbed her breasts with both hands and put one of them in my mouth. Oohh... Just sucking those rich nipples was making my mouth water. SAB: Aaaaohh... Johnny... Ohhh... - She said, already starting to moan. Her eyes were closed and her head pointed towards the ceiling. She loved having me attached to her boobs like a desperate man. And I was fascinated by pressing my face against that skin. We didn't talk much or anything. There wasn't too much room for words. We let our instincts take over. Ummmm... leaammm... mmmcchhhp... I was sucking her tits savagely, as if they were mine. Of my property. She didn't stop moving on top of me, with each passing moment more eager to explode into madness. Suddenly, she pushed me back against the couch cushion. Her boobs bounced very hotly. She looked at me with a face of an uncontrollable predator and moved barely from where I was.
She put her hand on my pants and started to unbutton me.
I could hear her accelerated breathing.
As for me, I took off my jacket and swung it around there.
Like her, I wore a white shirt.
Sabrina had fire in her gaze. That kind of fire that only goes out one way.
The degree of excitement I was carrying was immense.
I started to take down my pants and Sabrina got up a bit.
Automatically, I led my hands under her skirt to remove the thong.
When I took her from the sides, she came towards me, with both legs on either side of mine.
I grabbed her breasts again while lowering the thong.
SAB: Ooohh... - She orgasmed when my tongue licked all her nipple, inside my mouth. It was spectacular to feel the weight of her breast on my tongue.
She sucked it so hard that the sound sopapa must have been heard until the end of the hallway.
She quickly lifted one leg and the thong only stayed on one of them, on the thigh. It was black and thin.
I finished taking down my pants in front of her attentive and hot gaze.
She wasn't saying anything with words, but she was telling me everything with her eyes.
My cock remained erect, pointing upwards.
When she saw it, she bit her lower lip in an incredible way.
It was very hard.
I raised the zipper on her skirt a bit and she lifted it all the way up while her breasts moved before me.
She had a beautiful, depilated vagina. Only with a thin line of hair above the pubis that looked terrible.
She looked at me fixedly, breathing heavily, and I grabbed her ass. Squeezing it hard.
She was a femme fatale in every way.
No doubt about it.
I was dying to have her sit on me.
May my cock get buried inside her precious pussy.
With a lip movement, she told me I love you and started sitting on my cock.
The moment when her vaginal lips took contact with the tip of my member was sublime.
I felt like I was going out. all. Ooohhh… She closed her eyes and opened her mouth, feeling an indescribable pleasure. I groaned like the best, especially when her warm pussy wrapped around my cock. SAB: Aaaaahhhhh… Mmmm.- Exclaimed groaning. Tight and lubricated, it entered me completely. I took her by the neck and pulled her towards my mouth. It got stuck really deep. With force. It was beautiful to have sex with her and a bald cable. Feeling all her wet skin, all her flesh. She leaned on my shoulders and started riding with her mouth open. We were doing it again. Unique… I: I love you, red... It's always going to be like this... Oohh…- I said completely crazy. Biting her lips, with a pleasure expression impossible to hide, she unbuttoned her hair. It was a very sensual movement that made me melt. All her colored hair fell to one side with the sensual head movement she performed. A fragrance extremely delicious emanated from it. As she groaned louder and louder, I touched her legs, her Booty. I kissed her boobs. I'm sure if someone passed by the door and paid a minimum of attention, they would hear the moans. Aa..aa..aa..aa..aaaa... was heard coming out of her interior. Making love with her wearing only her underwear made everything more spectacular. Even Paul Verhoeven wouldn't have imagined a sequence like this one. I tried to concentrate. Her galloping over my cock, her warmth. It was magical that moment with Sabrina. I couldn't believe it had happened again. I: You're so yummy...- I said looking at her while eating her nipple. She let out a tremendous scream when she heard me. Oooohh, she exclaimed, furrowing her face. Almost made me explode when I heard her. I could feel in my cock all the fluids emanating from us. SAB: Oohh…. Beautiful... Mummchh.- She ripped a kiss off me. We were both terribly red. I couldn't take it anymore. The pleasure was infinite. With conviction, I caressed every centimeter of skin that It was hard for my hand to get through. That texture... It was appetizing wherever I looked at it. And it didn't stop moaning. That sound could drive me crazy. aaa... oo.... aaaa... I enjoyed without stopping. SAB: You're driving me crazy... I can't take it anymore... I can't take it anymore.- She exclaimed, making an effort. I couldn't help but look at the movement of her lips. They hypnotized me. It was clear that Sabrina was one of the most beautiful women I had seen in my life. From the first day, I knew she had something special. She started moaning very loudly, almost screaming. I was surprised she didn't hold back, since we were at her workplace. She let out a wild groan, grabbing me tightly by the face and biting herself all over. I felt like her vaginal canal compressed suddenly. SAB: Aaaaaaaa...- She released with a face of pleasure rarely seen. She was finishing up. No being on the planet could resist that scream and a woman like her letting it out. With her arms, she squeezed her breasts in a very hot way, making them look like two beautiful globes. With part of her hair over her face, she opened her mouth, surrendering to the orgasm. Oh God, what beauty... It was instantaneous. I had nothing more to do. Immediately, I started cumming with her, enjoying it as the best. We merged into a mutual scream and kissing each other's mouths. Ooohhh aaa... mmmmm.... She fell fiercely onto me, terribly agitated and biting my lips. I could feel her heart beating in her chest. Like ours was beating... By reflex, I hugged her tightly. I could perceive three long jets of semen losing themselves inside her. Ufff... I loved finishing up inside her. It didn't matter that we weren't using a condom. And neither did she... She stayed like that, trying to catch her breath, on top of me. The sweat had soaked us both. My cock was still inside her. I knew she took birth control pills. At least until the last time we were together. Although my behavior was imprudent. SAB: Haa... Haa... I love you...- She said softly, trying to control her breathing and caressing my face and hair. I hugged her with all my strength. ME: I also, beautiful... - I replied and continued kissing her with a lot of love. I enjoyed every second she was on me. Every particle of her fragrance, every centimeter of her chubby skin. In the unconscious, something told me it was going to be the last time I would be able to do it. She didn't move either. She held me firm and closed her eyes. She didn't want to get up. My cock, still erect, pulsed in her vagina. We remained like that for several minutes. Each one resting on the other. It was clear that there was mutual love. No matter its origin. No matter its quality. We loved each other and there was nothing to do. I caressed her on her back, touching every fiber of her hair. I liked it a lot feeling the beats of her heart. I don't know why, but I also saw her as part of me. It's madness, I know. But every time I was more convinced that for love, there are no limits. SAB: We're a disaster, je... - She seemed to reflect. ME: I'm dying to see you... Why would it be a disaster? SAB: Because we shouldn't have done this... Not now, but before... We messed up. You were happy and together before I appeared... ME: Now are you going to blame yourself?. - I said incredulous. SAB: I know what I did... - She was giving me kisses on the chest, where my shirt was open. It seemed like she was speaking with all her sincerity. ME: I'm not saying you didn't do anything... But I'm sure that what happened between Mara and me, you don't have too much to do with it. SAB: Why do you say that? ME: Because you didn't decide for her... You didn't decide that she would want to experience the things she did... Neither in me... We decided without thinking about the consequences... A still had her penetrated and every time she moved a little, I got harder again. SAB: But I also got involved... ME: By our decision... SAB: Still, Johnny... I'm getting involved with my friend's boyfriend... Do you understand how that sounds? ME: First, I'm not with Mara anymore... It's been a long time... And second, she also did it... yours so that this happens. What, are you going to be the only one responsible? SAB: And don't you think it's at least a little bad being with me, knowing we were friends? I stayed looking at her. How beautiful she looked... YO: Yes... But on the other hand, I need it... I was dying to see you. If I'm not lying to her, I would be lying to myself if I denied being with you... She looked at me with a lot of tenderness. She didn't expect me to say something like that. She put her hand on my face, gently. SAB: I know you want me... But the woman of your life is Mara... She kept insisting with her. How far would she prioritize her friend's well-being over her own? YO: I tried to be with her... Really... But I couldn't be completely... I tried... SAB: You're angry... It's obvious. But I'm sure you still love her... Give it time YO: Why do you care so much about her?.- I asked, intrigued. I didn't close off the possibility that she was being so considerate after how badly Mara had behaved that night. SAB: Because she's my friend... And I love her as such. It doesn't matter what happened. I'll always love her because I know her... Her response left me perplexed. Was the feeling for her that great? I didn't doubt that she knew her, but was it that much to put aside her own interests? YO: You're a love... That happens, je... SAB: And I know what she loves you... Why do you think I feel so bad being with you now? I know what she suffers being away from you... YO: And what do you want me to do? SAB: Try to forget everything that happened... Keep moving forward. I promise you'll feel for her again, the way you always did... YO: And where do you fit in here? Do you think I can get rid of you like this? Not on your life! She got up, sitting back down on me again. My cock moved well hard inside her, making her gasp slightly as she felt it. She smiled with her eyes wide open. SAB: You're the love here... I understand Mara perfectly now... YO: I don't think you'll get rid of me from my life... Forget it... No.- I said very sure. SAB: I'm not saying you have to do that... Mmmchuiik.- She gave a nice kiss.
I: Then what?
SAB: I won't stop talking to you... I'll always be there for whatever you need.- Every two or three words, I'd give her a very tasty kiss. Comforting.
SAB: Not like now… But I'll be like a friend.
I looked at her with resignation.
I: Why like this?
SAB: Because we both know it has to be this way… If I weren't sure what really was between you two, I wouldn't insist…
I: I'm asking you something...
SAB: What?
I: Are we together? Like a couple.- She looked at me.
SAB: Yes…
I: Would you let her be with another man? Would you get angry and pull the plug on someone else who wasn't me?
She got stiff. Didn't know what to say. Just looked at me.
I: See what I'm saying? Ha!
SAB: I don't know… I suppose not. Because I feel it that way… But I wouldn't know what to tell you. Besides, you also did a lot of things… It was mutual
I: Yes, I know...
SAB: Do you think she doesn't want to kill herself because of it? Doesn't it hurt her?
I looked aside.
I: You didn't want to be with another that day… Do you understand? I know it's hard to comprehend, but very deep down, there were things I did that I wouldn't have done if Mara hadn't crossed the line.
SAB: Really?.- She said defiantly
I: Why do you say that?
SAB: According to what you say, you wouldn't have been with me, right?
I looked at her and smiled…
The truth is it really got to me.
I couldn't deny it.
SAB: Ah! Do you see? It's not like you think it is...
It could be, I don't know…
I had explored my guilt many times. But Sabrina was right.
I could have denied everything and not done it. I wanted to be with her.
I: I don't know… What do I know?
SAB: I'm not saying what happens between us isn't real... I'm just saying that what you went through with Mar until a few weeks ago was also real…
I: It wasn't just until a few weeks ago… I'd been uncomfortable, bad for a long time. There are things you don't know…
SAB: What things?.- She said surprised
I: How much did you talk to Mara after what happened?
SAB: Little and nothing... Why?
I: Then you didn't know...- I replied surprised. SAB: What are you talking about, handsome?. - She exclaimed, intrigued.
I looked at her.
At that moment, I regretted jumping into it like that. I hadn't measured the consequences it could have if I told her. But it was too late. Besides, there was no sense in keeping it hidden anymore.
YO: Before all this, those weekends... Before all that craziness... - I stopped, looking at her.
SAB: What? - She expressed very anxiously.
YO: I was going to propose marriage to Mara... - Sabrina opened her eyes as if she had seen a dead person.
SAB: What?! - She let out horrified.
YO: That was before... Before we decided to take that detour we took... Before you...
She couldn't believe what I was telling her. She stayed stiff.
SAB: But... How?
YO: Yes, I even had the rings...
With a look of horror, she got up from on top of me.
What am I saying?
She grabbed her head, lamenting.
YO: You're not to blame for anything... Before you started loving me, I had already lost enthusiasm about proposing it... In fact, if you hadn't been with me at that time, I would have been like a doormat...
SAB: Are you sure? You're telling me this so I won't kill myself.
I adjusted my clothes and stood up beside her.
YO: I wouldn't lie... You know... - I said, holding her and hugging her again. It was hard not to do it.
SAB: It can't be... - She lamented in earnest.
The story seemed raw, but had a complex background.
YO: That's it... Life is like that.
She also hugged me.
The smell of her hair perfume was impossible to ignore. It got into my head from all sides.
SAB: And does she know?
YO: Yes... That day we saw each other for the last time, I threw the rings away when I went to your house... They were in the car trunk. And well, it seems they found them on the sidewalk later... At that moment, I didn't think... I just wanted to go see you.
I looked at her incredulously.
SAB: When I thought I had done everything wrong... I find out this... I hate myself... - She expressed with much pain.
YO: I already told you, silly, before I started loving you, I was eager to... send everything to hell... You have nothing to do with it... SAB: Same thing... Oh no! The worst friend in the world...
YO: I won't repeat it again... We were responsible for what we did, not others...
SAB: Okay... You're right about that...
YO: Yes, I am...
SAB: I imagine how she must have felt when she found them...- She exclaimed with great sadness.
YO: I know... Like me when I saw her having sex in the bathroom, without even taking care of herself... It destroyed me...
She looked at me and hugged me tightly.
SAB: What a madness we've done, oh god!...
YO: I don't judge her, obviously not, but it's hard to overcome that from night to morning...
SAB: Also for her... I'm telling you seriously... I know how much you mean to Mar...
YO: And your feelings? Don't they matter?
She looked at me as if saying no one told me to stick my nose where it didn't belong.
YO: Maybe the anger I feel will make me stay away from Mara... It could be... But I know very well that now, I love being with you... I want to be with you, in this moment. Here and now. And it must mean something too...
SAB: I don't doubt it, dude... I don't doubt it.- She said smiling tenderly, while bending down to put on her thong on the other leg.
YO: I don't want not to see you again...
SAB: It won't happen...
YO: I need you...
SAB: I do too... But it's not fair for either of us...
YO: Why?
We were adjusting our clothes. One next to the other.
SAB: Because there's an obstacle that doesn't let you think clearly...
YO: Who, you? You're crazy haha
SAB: No... Your anger. That frustration. That disappointment you felt. That's why you can't be with Mara...
I stayed thinking for a few seconds. It wasn't a madness what she said. But I didn't want to think about it.
YO: Even if so... There will always be room for you in my life, I know...
She put on a terrible love face. She turned her head slightly to the side and came closer to me.
She took my face, as was her habit, and kissed me for the umpteenth time that afternoon.
Of course, I corresponded.
I liked it.
SAB: There are no three-way relationships...
YO: Haha
She looked at the... side, like thinking about something.
I: What? It could be jeje. I once told them to you, half in jest, half seriously...
SAB: That day when I saw you at the clinic, Mara was also in the room. Well, actually, she warned me...
I: Yes, I know...
SAB: When I came to see you and saw you in bed, it really hurt me...
I: I imagine, red, but I'm fine now... Forget about it...
SAB: No, but you don't understand what I want to say... I touched your hand...
I stayed.
I wanted to tell you something.
I was wondering what...
I: And what's the point?
SAB: Before leaving the room, you said something while asleep. You repeated it a few times.
I: What?
SAB: Mara...
I opened my eyes in surprise.
What did she refer to?
SAB: Yes, you kept repeating her name... You stopped saying it when she held your hand. How? So much so?
I: Well, I didn't say I didn't want her anymore... Besides, she's the main protagonist of my misfortune... Do you know how many nightmares I had? It's normal to say her name or have her present all the time...
SAB: You still care about her... Give yourself time and space for her to come back like that...
I couldn't be Sabrina thinking that way.
No one could deny she was an excellent person.
I: I don't think it's that simple, but how good are you going to be?.- I said, taking her gently by the neck and giving her a very tasty kiss. It wasn't illogical what happened. Simply, it was like that.
SAB: Well, stop because we could keep doing this until tomorrow... It wasn't a bad idea at all.
I: Let's do it ha ha...
SAB: Ha ha
We both laughed. We needed to be together for at least a little while.
Her boobs were outside her shirt, pressing against me.
I: God, I missed that smile...
SAB: Beautiful... If things hadn't turned out this way, I wouldn't be here now...
I: I know... By the way, how awful is your white shirt unbuttoned? I was suffering just from seeing you. Her boobs were swaying in a weird way as she searched for her bra.
SAB: Jeje... Help me?
I: Can't we stay together for a little while more? Ha ha.- I said grabbing her bra to help her put it on. Don't tell me that...- She exclaimed as if saying don't be bad. And she was right. We had done enough. Or not? I hooked up her bra while she adjusted her hair. Then she turned around and ate my mouth at the same time as she re-tied the braid. It was evident that neither of us wanted it to end. In fact, since I'd told her I wasn't with Mara anymore, which I had tried without success, I felt more relieved. After all, we were two people, alone, who needed each other mutually. SAB: From now on, things have to improve... You need to recover well from what happened... It's not a joke, buddy! YO: I'm fine already. Don't worry... I was getting a little anxious knowing our afternoon together was coming to an end. That's why I wasn't stopping kissing her at the same time as we talked. SAB: Tomorrow I have to travel again... Are we okay? - She said looking at me with her eyes. YO: Ask me that... SAB: You know it's true... I was also dying to see you, to write to you...- It seemed she was confessing. YO: You didn't respond jeje SAB: I don't want the bond to break, but you know it can't happen again... YO: You said the same thing last time... That's a mess... SAB: But now it's different... YO: Ah yes? Why? SAB: We had our moment together, free, without having to give explanations to anyone... It was true. It was an authentic moment. YO: Right now I feel like I don't want you to leave... I want to keep seeing you... She looked at me with something like pity in her eyes. SAB: It's very hard for me to have a close friendship with Mar again after what I did. But if someday you're alone and I'm not in her life, what I feel now is that I would be there for you... A knot formed in my throat. It couldn't be so sweet... And I couldn't help but get a little misty-eyed. SAB: I know, I'm sure, at this moment, that if you let time pass, you'll realize you still love Mar like always... That anger is going away from you. Well, you're going to grow haha.- She exclaimed with some excitement.
I: What I feel for her won't change what I feel for you.
She was laughing at me.
I: I'm telling you seriously... Do you think it's not possible to love more than one person?
SAB: Shh, stop!- She said, silencing me with her finger on my lips. How beautiful, god...
It was clear she didn't believe that was possible. Not like me who contemplated it.
She kissed my hand.
SAB: Haha, god...
She smiled and looked beautiful doing so.
We had changed and were still embracing. I don't know why, but a song by Cerati came to mind. Crime.
And knowing I wouldn't see her for a long time, I got down again.
I: When are you coming back? I'm already missing you...
SAB: I'm not even halfway through my postgraduate studies... Don't think about it. Promise me you'll think about what I said!
I: Yes, bombón... It's crazy that you don't believe me when I tell you. But it's like that.
SAB: I believe you, handsome... Mmmk.- She sucked on my mouth.
I sighed deeply.
It was incredible what had happened. If they had told me when I got up, I wouldn't have believed it even if I was crazy.
I: Then... Are we okay? Won't you disappear from the face of the earth?
SAB: No, but good... You know!
I: You'll always be in my plans...
She made a face.
SAB: And also in mine... But think about what I said, take your time. You'll see that I'm right.
I: What if you're not?
SAB: Who knows... Life takes so many turns...- She exclaimed from the depths of her soul.
I understood everything.
I hugged her again and she squeezed me tight. It was the only person, after Mara, who showed me a feeling like that.
And it seemed like a movie... The instrumental of that theme kept playing in my head.
She was right that we should look to the future. I had proposed doing so that week. Being well with myself first, to be able to be well with others. I understood her point, clearly. But I still thought love was independent of people.
That's what I believed and wasn't... necessary that he put me to discuss it.
YO: And are you going to be fine?.- I said with some stings in the chest.
SAB: Now that I saw you, yes…-
YO: I love you, Sabri…- I exclaimed, pressing my lips on her neck. That tasty smell she had was going to kill me.
SAB: And I you... Now go, before we end up again on the couch jaja
YO: Don't tease...
SAB: Jaja no! It's not necessary... Because at any moment the janitor comes...
YO: Can I write to you?
SAB: No need... I don't want you to get confused... I know you're thinking about me...
YO: Well, but when all this passes... You'll see that I was right...
SAB: Jaja who would have said that under that macho attitude, there was a person so tender...- She told, tempted.
YO: Jaja... I'd like to take you even to the airport...
SAB: No, really, I'm telling you, it's not necessary, nor prudent.-
She spoke to me while adjusting her shirt and jacket.
At every instant, she was more installed in my head, that it was true we could have our moment.
It was what I was waiting for. Obvious that I would miss her, but I felt a great relief inside.
YO: Once you see...
SAB: I'll write to you when I get there, but okay, you made me promise...
YO: Okay... Neither will I bother you...- I said with some resignation.
SAB: I know you'll be for me... Stay calm, I know it.
YO: Yes... I understand your point perfectly.
Chhuuiik was heard loud and clear.
SAB: You're skinny... Start eating!
YO: You're divine.- I told her, laughing.
SAB: Tonto!
Each second was being used as if it were the last.
She was caressing me, giving me kisses.
In other circumstances, it would be very clear that things would be totally different.
YO: Hope your neighbors didn't hear us...
SAB: I don't care...- She said with a piquant face.
YO: Jaja... Beautiful...
It was incredible but we kept eating each other's mouth. Neither of us let go.
It would be because in the end, we knew that at least for a long time it wouldn't happen again.
It was sad to think about it. But Sabrina had reason.
We both had reason. Maybe I just had to let time take care of things.
I wasn't wrong in thinking that I had that conflict in my head.
Actually, it could have been two conflicts. Since things with Sabrina were also bothering me.
And now I was starting to see it differently. More relieved.
SAB: Good, go ahead!.- She said biting her lower lip.
YO: Good... I wouldn't want...
SAB: Come on, don't make it hard for me...-
YO: Why don't we spend the rest of the day together? It's just today...
She stayed looking at me with tender eyes.
SAB: Nothing would make me happier... I swear! But it would be too much... Already what we did was very nice! Come on!.- Almost as if she were asking please.
I understood, but felt it was a shame. We could have stretched out our moment a little more. It was something genuine, not just a slip-up.
Besides, Mara had also been responsible for Sabrina starting to have problems with me.
And I didn't understand how she still thought everything I did was like betraying her.
Whatever it was, what had developed between the two of us wasn't just a simple fling.
YO: Good... I love you, red! Mmmuachp.- I gave her a kiss
SAB: Nobody has ever called me that before jaja.. But I like it!
YO: Don't?.- I laughed
SAB: Me too, take care, see you later.- She exclaimed tenderly.
I felt trapped by her essence, her smell, her beauty. But I didn't want to make it hard for her either.
YO: Take care, seeing you was...- The words got stuck in my throat.
SAB: I know, it's the same for me.-
We gave each other a last kiss, leaving everything behind.
The truth is that I felt my lips swollen from all the kissing.
We merged into a long sigh.
It was time to go already.
Her gaze began to weaken again like that night.
I didn't like seeing her like this. My throat closed up.
We went to the entrance. I couldn't conceive that I was leaving already. It was something crude walking, watching the image of the door getting bigger.
She wasn't saying anything. I knew her and knew she was trying to keep a good face. Those stiff faces because Before the slightest movement of your facial muscles, you break down. Why? Why does it have to be like that? I would ask myself. A very sad goodbye was coming. Again.
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The idea wasn't to upload so many, but well, I hope when the book comes out everyone will understand.
Already registered the second one, which has already been read.
When I finish this one, I'll do it the same way.
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CHAPTER XV
Despite having a horrible night, after taking a shower and eating something, I was finally able to sleep. I needed it.
I think I was a bit more calm already.
I had decided to do everything possible to forget everything that had happened. But this time, seriously.
Accepting my guilt. With all that came with it. Doing it as it should be done.
And also understanding that the responsibility was shared. That I didn't control everything.
No longer could I keep living with those thoughts and new panic attacks I suffered.
Because they were panic attacks...
Never in my life had something like this happened to me, nor having heart problems.
It was madness!
I know we walked a long path to get where we were.
It wasn't just a simple mistake. We made decisions, went through extensive moments, had daily thoughts about what we wanted to do and not do.
And despite sometimes doubting, we ended up doing things that weren't ours. That didn't belong to our essence.
Yes, always said we were very hot-headed, sexual. But the limit we had crossed was too far away.
I think there were many things to mend.
But truly. Doing them for a legitimate reason. Not because of guilt.
I didn't have to act out of guilt. This one had dominated me completely during the last months. It had taken total control of my life.
And that had to end...
Some days passed in which I thought and thought about many things.
Of course, Mara didn't speak to me. I preferred not to... neither. Until I was 100% sure of myself, that my judgment wasn't affected by those horrible thoughts, by those damn memories, I didn't want to have contact with her. Yes, I thought about Sabrina too. I missed her. But at the same time, I was very hurt because she left me and just went away without even saying a word to me. Maybe what she said wasn't that true after all. I wanted to be alone. Recover as much as possible from my affection, train. I was living on the edge all the time. With my head racing 24 hours a day. That wasn't working for me. Obviously not. And I suppose temporary isolation in my house could help quite a bit. I also thought about Mara. I won't deny it. I didn't know what I felt... Wanting her, I wanted her. It was obvious. But there were also feelings of anger and disappointment that cost me a lot to leave behind like that. That's why I believed it wasn't fair to her for us to see each other at least not for the moment. She was someone very special to me. The woman of my life, with whom I thought I would marry and I wasn't willing to show her an image of myself like the one from last time. No matter how much had passed, I believed Mara didn't deserve a treatment like that. And those were unusual days... Never had spent so alone. At my old house, there was always some brother around. Instead now, the house was a silence that deafens you. It was Thursday and they asked me to take care of some contracts at work. I had to bring them to the studio that represented an insurance company, for them to sign, for it to be homologated in court by the judge. End of damages and losses routine. I lamented a bit because I would have to deal with Capital's traffic, but well, seeing it from another angle, I was going out a little, to vary. I had to put on formal pants, shirt, and suit. I had already forgotten what it was like to dress formally with so much pandemic. But I must admit that I was really fond of that kind of clothing, je. In the end, I got dressed and went there. As it was obvious, given the long road ahead of me and the dense traffic, I had enough time to think while listening to music. Of course. A thousand things were crossing my mind. I think we all unconsciously seek to feel sadder when we are sad. We want silence, to be alone, to listen to depressing music. It's rare, as Dr. Barassi would say, but it is so. Indefectibly. And this time, it wasn't an exception for me. Until recently, I thought I'd get married... God, what a madness... Then came that terrible chaos that ruined everything. How could that happen? But it wasn't all. No. There was more. I had become too close to Sabrina. And how... I don't know what was going through our heads at the time, why we played with fire like we did, putting everything we had at risk. But what I felt for her was genuine. We understood each other only through gestures, just like I did with Mara. Not to mention her beauty, which dazzled me every time I saw her. We had something special. That's what I believe. And yes, it's inexplicable. But also true that I started wondering if I was in love with two people. Because I know I feel anger and disappointment with Mara. But I'm not sure if I've stopped loving her completely. And I know I miss Sabrina with all my soul too. It's curious. And very hard to bear. To make matters worse, she also felt something for me. Something she was willing to sacrifice for her friendship with Mara. And that's when the mess started in my head. I loved Mara crazily. There was no doubt about it. But what was happening now? I also felt like I loved Sabrina... The trip became super short while I was thinking so much. I looked for a parking spot on Viamonte to leave the car. Luckily, there wasn't too much crowd in the center and it wasn't too hot. I walked until I reached to the building of the study, I had to go to the sixth floor, where it was located.
What a rare thing it was to return after so many months. I could say that I even enjoyed wandering around...
I entered the central hall and put myself in line for the common elevators. Due to the pandemic, access to them was quite limited, so I would have to wait a while there. Two people at a time were allowed, and there were a lot of people.
Since I had no other choice, I stayed waiting my turn.
I was standing there, putting on my earbuds to listen to the most melancholic themes on Spotify, when the sounds of high heels resonated throughout the hall.
By reflex, I felt someone approaching me.
Gently, they touched my shoulder.
The first thing that came to mind is that someone wanted to ask me something about the building. Some floor or where there was a bathroom. Who knows?
I never imagined who I would find there.
I lifted my head and saw her.
I felt like my heart was opening up in twenty pieces.
A dreamy figure stood beside me, looking at me with a face that showed some kind of sorrow. Or at least, that's what I thought I perceived.
A faint smile on the side wasn't enough to convey the weight that gesture carried.
I remained motionless. Totally disoriented.
It was Sabrina...
On autopilot, I took off my earbuds.
What was she doing there? If she was in Italy...
The words wouldn't come out. I couldn't believe it.
So much had I thought about her and now she was right in front of me.
Was this real?
SAB: What are you doing here?.- She exclaimed with some nervousness.
I, still in limbo, answered:
YO: I'm coming to Thompson and Associates to sign a contract.-
The envelope in my hand began to sweat due to the sweat pouring out of my pores. I looked at her trying to figure out if what my eyes were seeing was true.
SAB: Ahh. One floor above ours!
My incredulity was enormous.
I didn't understand anything.
SAB: Hi!
She greeted me with a kiss on the cheek.
It was Incredible to feel that characteristic perfume of hers again. God... How I had missed it. The people looked, since everyone was greeting each other with fists. SAB: Come! Let's use the elevator from my studio... - She said quite red-faced. I don't know who was more nervous, her or me. For a moment, I thought I was dreaming. It wasn't possible that I was seeing her. I followed her voice as if pushed by inertia, confused. She was dressed formally, with a long adjusted skirt and a white shirt, with some buttons undone. Her boobs were sticking out absurdly towards the outside. She had red hair, gathered, with a bun. She walked in front of me carrying folders in her hand. I couldn't help but look at that tremendous body she possessed. She looked infernal dressed like that. On high heels... YO: Weren't you on a trip?. - It slipped out of my mouth. I was still looking at her stunned. She had a face of something. I don't know what. But it seemed like she was afraid or ashamed to talk to me. She put her personal key in the elevator for it to come. SAB: Yes... I took some time off this week from graduate school and came back to do some things. - She answered with nervous eyes. She was beautiful. And that vulnerable look, it was splitting me in two. I had so many things to tell her. But I didn't know if I should or not. I was still in shock from finding her there. I nodded like saying ah, look. SAB: How are you? Me grabbed that feeling of shivering when you have cold and my throat closed up. YO: Fine, fine... And you? The door opened. I made the gesture for her to come in. Thanks she said timidly and entered. She had a crazy mess in her head. It couldn't be! I had found her! I was serious. Although I wanted to tell her things, I also felt anger about how she left without saying anything. My words weren't coming out too well, but in the looks we exchanged, we were saying a thousand things. Things like I missed you, sorry... My breathing accelerated a little. YO: You look very good... - It slipped out of my mouth. The truth is that I was moved by the situation and seeing her so nervous, it made me cloudy. SAB: Thanks... Said making a sidelong face. From the corner of my eye, I saw that she had glassy eyes. They were getting red. I was already arriving at my floor. The knot in my throat was suffocating. Maybe if I had arrived more cautious for the situation, I would have faced her differently. But it took me by surprise. Besides, she wasn't telling me anything either. She was mute, standing there. And visibly emotional. It was uncomfortable. I never believed we'd have an unpleasant moment together. It wasn't consistent. The elevator door opened. That's where I had to get off. I looked at her one more time. She looked at me with big, shiny eyes. As if she wanted to tell me something. I think I did the same. Swallowed saliva and didn't know what to do. See you later came out of my mouth. She listened and almost without voice, said chau. But it wasn't what her eyes were saying. I don't know why I didn't say anything. I don't know if it was anger, nerves or something else. But I left the elevator as if nothing had happened, as if Sabrina were a stranger. Before the door closed completely, I saw her let out a big sigh. With immense pain in my throat, I walked to the end of the hallway. What did I do? I asked myself. After so much time without seeing her, I wasn't able to say anything... Just as someone was leaving the office where I was going. Are you Jonas? they asked me. Looking confused, I said yes. You're coming for the agreement, aren't you? I have to leave urgently. Can we sign it quickly? they rushed to answer. I wasn't focused yet. My head had been disordered from running into Sabrina. YO: Yes, yes, give it to him.- I replied, taking out the agreement from the envelope, looking towards the elevator. I don't know what else he said. It was Thompson, who was supposed to sign it for me, but I didn't pay attention. All I know is that he signed it in the hallway and left. Little did I care about the messy situation. I felt like I was in outer space. I had left... pass up an opportunity to get answers.
I walked resignedly back to the elevator I had come from.
Then I remembered it was private use only. It would never open. And I touched the button on the one next to it.
What a fool I was.
She looked right at me! She searched for me to greet me and I didn't do anything.
I let her pass...
I knew I'd regret it. A lot.
It wasn't going well for me. Not at all!
It was incredible. But that's how it was.
It hurt to swallow. I was consternated.
Then the elevator opened, but not the one I had gotten in earlier.
I told myself it's over, I want to get out of here.
And when I prepared to enter again, there she was, once more.
Sabrina was still in the elevator.
I stayed stiff, standing at the door.
She also had a surprised look on her face. And her eyeliner seemed a bit smudged.
SAB: I never pressed my floor and it took me all the way to the 20th.- She laughed nervously.
Without saying anything, I entered again.
Once more with her. Once more by her side.
The aroma of her body made me do what she wanted.
I think I gathered all my strength and due to the little time I had left to say it, I put everything into one sentence.
YO: Why did you leave me like that?-. I said almost stuttering.
She opened her eyes wide and conveyed a very deep feeling.
It could be guilt, love, anything. But something was.
She stayed silent, not saying anything. Just looking at me.
We remained like that until the door to her apartment opened.
She put her key in the lock.
It took an instant, as if she was searching for how to respond.
Finally, she looked at me.
SAB: Do you want to take a coffee?.- She expressed with her clear blue eyes, as clear as the Caribbean Sea.
Of course I wanted.
I had waited a long time to see her.
I needed answers, I needed to hear her, be with her.
YO: Sure...-. I said taking a deep breath.
SAB: Let's go to my office... At this hour, there won't be anyone around, it won't be a problem...
She took out her key from the lock and left.
I did the same.
The weather was very unpredictable. It had been a long time since I felt so lost in the fog. As she was in that moment. In front of me, Sabrina was walking. Yes, Sabrina. The one who only lasted for seconds, I believed she was on another continent.
SAB: You see how Covid is... There's more silence than in a cemetery around here lately...
I tried to come back to myself and answered what came out.
I still couldn't conceive the idea that it was her talking to me.
YO: It was supposed to be vaccines...
SAB: Yes, but I also think there was a before and after with office work, don't you?
YO: Yes, yes... - I replied almost dizzy.
SAB: Well... It's here...
She opened the door and let me in. She held the handle so I could enter. Once inside, I felt the empty spatial climate of the room.
YO: You're not going to have any prob... - I didn't finish saying the sentence, when Sabrina hugged me as the door closed.
She did it very tightly, resting her head on my chest. With her hands, she held me firmly by the back and neck. My heart started beating excessively.
She breathed deeply, sighing. As if she had been holding herself back for a long time. It was obvious that I hugged her back too. I missed her so much.
I felt like her heart was also beating heavily. It was a very comforting feeling.
SAB: Sorry... Sorry... - She exclaimed with commotion.
Once more, the fragrance of her neck skin entered my respiratory system, igniting it.
YO: I missed you... Really... - I said trying to maintain composure, but not lying to her.
SAB: I also missed you. A lot. But you know how things are.
She was still leaning on me, as if she didn't want to let go. I felt like her breasts were pressed against mine. It hadn't happened in a while.
We stayed like that for a few minutes. I didn't want to let her go either. I couldn't believe it.
YO: But why didn't you even talk to me?
SAB: Because I couldn't... I didn't have the right. Forgive me...
I didn't know what to tell him in reality. I simply wanted to understand how she had disentangled herself from me, after everything we had... said I felt.
YOU: You're beautiful...
She moved a little bit, just back, with a grimace on her face.
The unbuttoned part of the shirt left me seeing the precious fold that her big breasts formed.
SAB: Your suit looks nice... - She said observing me.
I loved having her like this hugged.
Yes. My friend also felt the same way. I didn't mind if she noticed how happy I was to see her again.
I looked at her with many desires to eat her up right there. That's it. Regardless of what I felt about Mara. I wanted to swallow Sabrina whole.
SAB: Oh, I can't believe you're here, silly... - She exclaimed affectionately and went back to resting her head on my chest.
She made me sigh nicely...
That meant she wanted me too, despite everything.
YOU: I don't believe it either...
SAB: I'm a piece of trash, I know... But I needed to see you, hug you...
YOU: Don't say that... Nobody wanted what happened to happen... -
SAB: But it happened and even though I know I'll never have with Mara the relationship I had, she's my friend and I love her truly... - She seemed to be moved.
YOU: I know... I love her too. But I also love you... You don't know how hard it was for me not to see you anymore...
She squeezed me tight. We were both standing and hugging each other.
SAB: I'll never forgive myself for what happened. I already know we all were responsible in our measure, but enamo... - She stopped.
I took her cheek softly. I turned her towards me. Again, she put those tearful eyes like at the door of her house that night.
Her lips trembled.
YOU: We all did our part... That's why you're not to blame...
She was getting more and more excited. Like when someone is tired of being bad.
SAB: I also hurt you... I know it's my fault what happened to you... At least in part.- She lamented.
YOU: It's over now, I'm fine...
SAB: When I found out, I had a nervous breakdown... My sister took me where you were hospitalized... - She said with emotion.
YOU: Yes, I know you were there...
SAB: I wanted to die.- Me He said with guilt. And he raised his hand to touch my face. He made a gesture on my cheek.
The way he looked at me...
It was incredible, but we were still holding onto each other.
I smiled.
When I saw his expression, it seemed to be moved even more.
A tear fell from one of his eyes.
That's when I felt an urgent need to kiss her.
I don't know if it was right. I don't know if it was correct. But I was sure that it was something I had longed for a long time.
With my hand, I slowly turned his face towards mine.
His perfect face begged me to take away the pain that was bending him over.
I leaned in a little to do so.
But she pushed my face away, holding back.
I tried again, caressing her cheek with great tenderness.
She wanted to resist a little, but I insisted. I really wanted to.
I sighed so much that any defense mechanism she could use became obsolete.
Suddenly, she clung to my mouth.
Umm...
How long had it been... How many times I thought about that moment... None could contain their desire to kiss the other.
The sounds of kisses were coarse. It sounded like a wave, as our lips enveloped each other.
I let go of the paper on my hand and hugged her tightly.
ME: Aaww... Beautiful... umm chuikk...
SAB: Haa...- She was breathing heavily.
ME: I miss your kisses... Your smell... Your skin... Mmm.- I kissed her desperately.
When she heard me, she relaxed into sighs.
I held her by the butt. Firm and voluptuous.
I caressed her as if I hadn't touched her in centuries. She felt very special.
She was also caressing me all over my body with passion.
Her eyes were closed, slightly moist from some tears that had slipped out. But she couldn't stop eating my mouth.
I had many desires for her. I loved feeling how her tongue joined mine in such a brutal way.
I lifted her up into the air.
SAB: Aaaa...- She breathed deeply.
How nice it was to have her on top of me.
Mmm oommm muaak chuiik could be heard in the silent office.
I ran out the door with her on top. armchairs near the reception. SAB: Do you know what I missed?... Umm aahh…- It moved me how it was. They were true feelings from her part. Although she believed, deep down, that she was doing something wrong. That she shouldn't be doing it.
It transmitted her face, her tears. But it was very hard for her to contain herself. Like also happened to me.
SAB: I won't forgive you never, but, I love you, buddy… I love you! It was like an electric shock that hit me with all its force.
Her words loosened my entire body. YO: I also love you...- I answered, aghast...
We kissed each other more and more fiercely. Sabrina had me by the face, as if she wanted to make sure I didn't get away. She gave me kisses that killed me with tenderness. Slow, heavy.
She sighed uncontrollably. Tears fell from her eyes while she did it. She knew she was failing her friend. Her great friend. Very deep down inside her, she was sure of what she was doing with me, still being prohibited.
YO: Why are you crying, beautiful?... Ummm miaam chuuiik...
SAB: It hurts...- She exclaimed with deep sadness...
We reached the armchair and I fell heavily onto her on top of me. I leaned against the backrest.
SAB: I don't want to be this... I'm a garca...- She said, looking at me with tearful eyes, but not letting go of my mouth.
YO: Why?
SAB: You know why...
YO: Is it because you felt something? I also am doing what I feel...
I couldn't control myself either.
I kissed her neck, roughly. She sighed, caressing me, holding onto my hair.
I went down, kissing her white skin, until I reached her boobs.
I put my head in the neckline of her shirt and kissed them wildly. Like I was missing that skin... How many times had I dreamed of going back to touch it, to lick it.
I also felt guilty for what I was doing. I thought about Mara. I know it would hurt her...
But I needed to be with Sabrina. I don't know how to explain it.
From the beginning, there was something with her.
I didn't feel like I was cheating on Mara or doing something unforgivable. Maybe because of how things went down... That the three of us let it happen. I don't know, I'm rambling, but I wanted to be with her at that moment, no doubt about it. I undid all the buttons on her shirt while kissing her. Her skirt was almost up. The fine and delicate skin of her legs shone in front of me. Very nice... I caressed them with all the enthusiasm I had accumulated over the last months. And as if it were the last time I could do so. I opened her shirt and her beautiful torso was revealed to my view. A nice black bra covered her breasts, which showed some shine due to the kisses she had received a few moments earlier. Those divine freckles of hers... Hypnotic... I buried my face in them again, not without first sliding my hand behind her and releasing it. Now, only my face stuck to her tits was keeping her bra in place. Sabrina wasn't stopping from caressing me and giving me kisses all over the place. It didn't matter that we were in her office, her workplace. She knew nobody would come, that we were completely alone. I grabbed her breasts with both hands and put one of them in my mouth. Oohh... Just sucking those rich nipples was making my mouth water. SAB: Aaaaohh... Johnny... Ohhh... - She said, already starting to moan. Her eyes were closed and her head pointed towards the ceiling. She loved having me attached to her boobs like a desperate man. And I was fascinated by pressing my face against that skin. We didn't talk much or anything. There wasn't too much room for words. We let our instincts take over. Ummmm... leaammm... mmmcchhhp... I was sucking her tits savagely, as if they were mine. Of my property. She didn't stop moving on top of me, with each passing moment more eager to explode into madness. Suddenly, she pushed me back against the couch cushion. Her boobs bounced very hotly. She looked at me with a face of an uncontrollable predator and moved barely from where I was.
She put her hand on my pants and started to unbutton me.
I could hear her accelerated breathing.
As for me, I took off my jacket and swung it around there.
Like her, I wore a white shirt.
Sabrina had fire in her gaze. That kind of fire that only goes out one way.
The degree of excitement I was carrying was immense.
I started to take down my pants and Sabrina got up a bit.
Automatically, I led my hands under her skirt to remove the thong.
When I took her from the sides, she came towards me, with both legs on either side of mine.
I grabbed her breasts again while lowering the thong.
SAB: Ooohh... - She orgasmed when my tongue licked all her nipple, inside my mouth. It was spectacular to feel the weight of her breast on my tongue.
She sucked it so hard that the sound sopapa must have been heard until the end of the hallway.
She quickly lifted one leg and the thong only stayed on one of them, on the thigh. It was black and thin.
I finished taking down my pants in front of her attentive and hot gaze.
She wasn't saying anything with words, but she was telling me everything with her eyes.
My cock remained erect, pointing upwards.
When she saw it, she bit her lower lip in an incredible way.
It was very hard.
I raised the zipper on her skirt a bit and she lifted it all the way up while her breasts moved before me.
She had a beautiful, depilated vagina. Only with a thin line of hair above the pubis that looked terrible.
She looked at me fixedly, breathing heavily, and I grabbed her ass. Squeezing it hard.
She was a femme fatale in every way.
No doubt about it.
I was dying to have her sit on me.
May my cock get buried inside her precious pussy.
With a lip movement, she told me I love you and started sitting on my cock.
The moment when her vaginal lips took contact with the tip of my member was sublime.
I felt like I was going out. all. Ooohhh… She closed her eyes and opened her mouth, feeling an indescribable pleasure. I groaned like the best, especially when her warm pussy wrapped around my cock. SAB: Aaaaahhhhh… Mmmm.- Exclaimed groaning. Tight and lubricated, it entered me completely. I took her by the neck and pulled her towards my mouth. It got stuck really deep. With force. It was beautiful to have sex with her and a bald cable. Feeling all her wet skin, all her flesh. She leaned on my shoulders and started riding with her mouth open. We were doing it again. Unique… I: I love you, red... It's always going to be like this... Oohh…- I said completely crazy. Biting her lips, with a pleasure expression impossible to hide, she unbuttoned her hair. It was a very sensual movement that made me melt. All her colored hair fell to one side with the sensual head movement she performed. A fragrance extremely delicious emanated from it. As she groaned louder and louder, I touched her legs, her Booty. I kissed her boobs. I'm sure if someone passed by the door and paid a minimum of attention, they would hear the moans. Aa..aa..aa..aa..aaaa... was heard coming out of her interior. Making love with her wearing only her underwear made everything more spectacular. Even Paul Verhoeven wouldn't have imagined a sequence like this one. I tried to concentrate. Her galloping over my cock, her warmth. It was magical that moment with Sabrina. I couldn't believe it had happened again. I: You're so yummy...- I said looking at her while eating her nipple. She let out a tremendous scream when she heard me. Oooohh, she exclaimed, furrowing her face. Almost made me explode when I heard her. I could feel in my cock all the fluids emanating from us. SAB: Oohh…. Beautiful... Mummchh.- She ripped a kiss off me. We were both terribly red. I couldn't take it anymore. The pleasure was infinite. With conviction, I caressed every centimeter of skin that It was hard for my hand to get through. That texture... It was appetizing wherever I looked at it. And it didn't stop moaning. That sound could drive me crazy. aaa... oo.... aaaa... I enjoyed without stopping. SAB: You're driving me crazy... I can't take it anymore... I can't take it anymore.- She exclaimed, making an effort. I couldn't help but look at the movement of her lips. They hypnotized me. It was clear that Sabrina was one of the most beautiful women I had seen in my life. From the first day, I knew she had something special. She started moaning very loudly, almost screaming. I was surprised she didn't hold back, since we were at her workplace. She let out a wild groan, grabbing me tightly by the face and biting herself all over. I felt like her vaginal canal compressed suddenly. SAB: Aaaaaaaa...- She released with a face of pleasure rarely seen. She was finishing up. No being on the planet could resist that scream and a woman like her letting it out. With her arms, she squeezed her breasts in a very hot way, making them look like two beautiful globes. With part of her hair over her face, she opened her mouth, surrendering to the orgasm. Oh God, what beauty... It was instantaneous. I had nothing more to do. Immediately, I started cumming with her, enjoying it as the best. We merged into a mutual scream and kissing each other's mouths. Ooohhh aaa... mmmmm.... She fell fiercely onto me, terribly agitated and biting my lips. I could feel her heart beating in her chest. Like ours was beating... By reflex, I hugged her tightly. I could perceive three long jets of semen losing themselves inside her. Ufff... I loved finishing up inside her. It didn't matter that we weren't using a condom. And neither did she... She stayed like that, trying to catch her breath, on top of me. The sweat had soaked us both. My cock was still inside her. I knew she took birth control pills. At least until the last time we were together. Although my behavior was imprudent. SAB: Haa... Haa... I love you...- She said softly, trying to control her breathing and caressing my face and hair. I hugged her with all my strength. ME: I also, beautiful... - I replied and continued kissing her with a lot of love. I enjoyed every second she was on me. Every particle of her fragrance, every centimeter of her chubby skin. In the unconscious, something told me it was going to be the last time I would be able to do it. She didn't move either. She held me firm and closed her eyes. She didn't want to get up. My cock, still erect, pulsed in her vagina. We remained like that for several minutes. Each one resting on the other. It was clear that there was mutual love. No matter its origin. No matter its quality. We loved each other and there was nothing to do. I caressed her on her back, touching every fiber of her hair. I liked it a lot feeling the beats of her heart. I don't know why, but I also saw her as part of me. It's madness, I know. But every time I was more convinced that for love, there are no limits. SAB: We're a disaster, je... - She seemed to reflect. ME: I'm dying to see you... Why would it be a disaster? SAB: Because we shouldn't have done this... Not now, but before... We messed up. You were happy and together before I appeared... ME: Now are you going to blame yourself?. - I said incredulous. SAB: I know what I did... - She was giving me kisses on the chest, where my shirt was open. It seemed like she was speaking with all her sincerity. ME: I'm not saying you didn't do anything... But I'm sure that what happened between Mara and me, you don't have too much to do with it. SAB: Why do you say that? ME: Because you didn't decide for her... You didn't decide that she would want to experience the things she did... Neither in me... We decided without thinking about the consequences... A still had her penetrated and every time she moved a little, I got harder again. SAB: But I also got involved... ME: By our decision... SAB: Still, Johnny... I'm getting involved with my friend's boyfriend... Do you understand how that sounds? ME: First, I'm not with Mara anymore... It's been a long time... And second, she also did it... yours so that this happens. What, are you going to be the only one responsible? SAB: And don't you think it's at least a little bad being with me, knowing we were friends? I stayed looking at her. How beautiful she looked... YO: Yes... But on the other hand, I need it... I was dying to see you. If I'm not lying to her, I would be lying to myself if I denied being with you... She looked at me with a lot of tenderness. She didn't expect me to say something like that. She put her hand on my face, gently. SAB: I know you want me... But the woman of your life is Mara... She kept insisting with her. How far would she prioritize her friend's well-being over her own? YO: I tried to be with her... Really... But I couldn't be completely... I tried... SAB: You're angry... It's obvious. But I'm sure you still love her... Give it time YO: Why do you care so much about her?.- I asked, intrigued. I didn't close off the possibility that she was being so considerate after how badly Mara had behaved that night. SAB: Because she's my friend... And I love her as such. It doesn't matter what happened. I'll always love her because I know her... Her response left me perplexed. Was the feeling for her that great? I didn't doubt that she knew her, but was it that much to put aside her own interests? YO: You're a love... That happens, je... SAB: And I know what she loves you... Why do you think I feel so bad being with you now? I know what she suffers being away from you... YO: And what do you want me to do? SAB: Try to forget everything that happened... Keep moving forward. I promise you'll feel for her again, the way you always did... YO: And where do you fit in here? Do you think I can get rid of you like this? Not on your life! She got up, sitting back down on me again. My cock moved well hard inside her, making her gasp slightly as she felt it. She smiled with her eyes wide open. SAB: You're the love here... I understand Mara perfectly now... YO: I don't think you'll get rid of me from my life... Forget it... No.- I said very sure. SAB: I'm not saying you have to do that... Mmmchuiik.- She gave a nice kiss.
I: Then what?
SAB: I won't stop talking to you... I'll always be there for whatever you need.- Every two or three words, I'd give her a very tasty kiss. Comforting.
SAB: Not like now… But I'll be like a friend.
I looked at her with resignation.
I: Why like this?
SAB: Because we both know it has to be this way… If I weren't sure what really was between you two, I wouldn't insist…
I: I'm asking you something...
SAB: What?
I: Are we together? Like a couple.- She looked at me.
SAB: Yes…
I: Would you let her be with another man? Would you get angry and pull the plug on someone else who wasn't me?
She got stiff. Didn't know what to say. Just looked at me.
I: See what I'm saying? Ha!
SAB: I don't know… I suppose not. Because I feel it that way… But I wouldn't know what to tell you. Besides, you also did a lot of things… It was mutual
I: Yes, I know...
SAB: Do you think she doesn't want to kill herself because of it? Doesn't it hurt her?
I looked aside.
I: You didn't want to be with another that day… Do you understand? I know it's hard to comprehend, but very deep down, there were things I did that I wouldn't have done if Mara hadn't crossed the line.
SAB: Really?.- She said defiantly
I: Why do you say that?
SAB: According to what you say, you wouldn't have been with me, right?
I looked at her and smiled…
The truth is it really got to me.
I couldn't deny it.
SAB: Ah! Do you see? It's not like you think it is...
It could be, I don't know…
I had explored my guilt many times. But Sabrina was right.
I could have denied everything and not done it. I wanted to be with her.
I: I don't know… What do I know?
SAB: I'm not saying what happens between us isn't real... I'm just saying that what you went through with Mar until a few weeks ago was also real…
I: It wasn't just until a few weeks ago… I'd been uncomfortable, bad for a long time. There are things you don't know…
SAB: What things?.- She said surprised
I: How much did you talk to Mara after what happened?
SAB: Little and nothing... Why?
I: Then you didn't know...- I replied surprised. SAB: What are you talking about, handsome?. - She exclaimed, intrigued.
I looked at her.
At that moment, I regretted jumping into it like that. I hadn't measured the consequences it could have if I told her. But it was too late. Besides, there was no sense in keeping it hidden anymore.
YO: Before all this, those weekends... Before all that craziness... - I stopped, looking at her.
SAB: What? - She expressed very anxiously.
YO: I was going to propose marriage to Mara... - Sabrina opened her eyes as if she had seen a dead person.
SAB: What?! - She let out horrified.
YO: That was before... Before we decided to take that detour we took... Before you...
She couldn't believe what I was telling her. She stayed stiff.
SAB: But... How?
YO: Yes, I even had the rings...
With a look of horror, she got up from on top of me.
What am I saying?
She grabbed her head, lamenting.
YO: You're not to blame for anything... Before you started loving me, I had already lost enthusiasm about proposing it... In fact, if you hadn't been with me at that time, I would have been like a doormat...
SAB: Are you sure? You're telling me this so I won't kill myself.
I adjusted my clothes and stood up beside her.
YO: I wouldn't lie... You know... - I said, holding her and hugging her again. It was hard not to do it.
SAB: It can't be... - She lamented in earnest.
The story seemed raw, but had a complex background.
YO: That's it... Life is like that.
She also hugged me.
The smell of her hair perfume was impossible to ignore. It got into my head from all sides.
SAB: And does she know?
YO: Yes... That day we saw each other for the last time, I threw the rings away when I went to your house... They were in the car trunk. And well, it seems they found them on the sidewalk later... At that moment, I didn't think... I just wanted to go see you.
I looked at her incredulously.
SAB: When I thought I had done everything wrong... I find out this... I hate myself... - She expressed with much pain.
YO: I already told you, silly, before I started loving you, I was eager to... send everything to hell... You have nothing to do with it... SAB: Same thing... Oh no! The worst friend in the world...
YO: I won't repeat it again... We were responsible for what we did, not others...
SAB: Okay... You're right about that...
YO: Yes, I am...
SAB: I imagine how she must have felt when she found them...- She exclaimed with great sadness.
YO: I know... Like me when I saw her having sex in the bathroom, without even taking care of herself... It destroyed me...
She looked at me and hugged me tightly.
SAB: What a madness we've done, oh god!...
YO: I don't judge her, obviously not, but it's hard to overcome that from night to morning...
SAB: Also for her... I'm telling you seriously... I know how much you mean to Mar...
YO: And your feelings? Don't they matter?
She looked at me as if saying no one told me to stick my nose where it didn't belong.
YO: Maybe the anger I feel will make me stay away from Mara... It could be... But I know very well that now, I love being with you... I want to be with you, in this moment. Here and now. And it must mean something too...
SAB: I don't doubt it, dude... I don't doubt it.- She said smiling tenderly, while bending down to put on her thong on the other leg.
YO: I don't want not to see you again...
SAB: It won't happen...
YO: I need you...
SAB: I do too... But it's not fair for either of us...
YO: Why?
We were adjusting our clothes. One next to the other.
SAB: Because there's an obstacle that doesn't let you think clearly...
YO: Who, you? You're crazy haha
SAB: No... Your anger. That frustration. That disappointment you felt. That's why you can't be with Mara...
I stayed thinking for a few seconds. It wasn't a madness what she said. But I didn't want to think about it.
YO: Even if so... There will always be room for you in my life, I know...
She put on a terrible love face. She turned her head slightly to the side and came closer to me.
She took my face, as was her habit, and kissed me for the umpteenth time that afternoon.
Of course, I corresponded.
I liked it.
SAB: There are no three-way relationships...
YO: Haha
She looked at the... side, like thinking about something.
I: What? It could be jeje. I once told them to you, half in jest, half seriously...
SAB: That day when I saw you at the clinic, Mara was also in the room. Well, actually, she warned me...
I: Yes, I know...
SAB: When I came to see you and saw you in bed, it really hurt me...
I: I imagine, red, but I'm fine now... Forget about it...
SAB: No, but you don't understand what I want to say... I touched your hand...
I stayed.
I wanted to tell you something.
I was wondering what...
I: And what's the point?
SAB: Before leaving the room, you said something while asleep. You repeated it a few times.
I: What?
SAB: Mara...
I opened my eyes in surprise.
What did she refer to?
SAB: Yes, you kept repeating her name... You stopped saying it when she held your hand. How? So much so?
I: Well, I didn't say I didn't want her anymore... Besides, she's the main protagonist of my misfortune... Do you know how many nightmares I had? It's normal to say her name or have her present all the time...
SAB: You still care about her... Give yourself time and space for her to come back like that...
I couldn't be Sabrina thinking that way.
No one could deny she was an excellent person.
I: I don't think it's that simple, but how good are you going to be?.- I said, taking her gently by the neck and giving her a very tasty kiss. It wasn't illogical what happened. Simply, it was like that.
SAB: Well, stop because we could keep doing this until tomorrow... It wasn't a bad idea at all.
I: Let's do it ha ha...
SAB: Ha ha
We both laughed. We needed to be together for at least a little while.
Her boobs were outside her shirt, pressing against me.
I: God, I missed that smile...
SAB: Beautiful... If things hadn't turned out this way, I wouldn't be here now...
I: I know... By the way, how awful is your white shirt unbuttoned? I was suffering just from seeing you. Her boobs were swaying in a weird way as she searched for her bra.
SAB: Jeje... Help me?
I: Can't we stay together for a little while more? Ha ha.- I said grabbing her bra to help her put it on. Don't tell me that...- She exclaimed as if saying don't be bad. And she was right. We had done enough. Or not? I hooked up her bra while she adjusted her hair. Then she turned around and ate my mouth at the same time as she re-tied the braid. It was evident that neither of us wanted it to end. In fact, since I'd told her I wasn't with Mara anymore, which I had tried without success, I felt more relieved. After all, we were two people, alone, who needed each other mutually. SAB: From now on, things have to improve... You need to recover well from what happened... It's not a joke, buddy! YO: I'm fine already. Don't worry... I was getting a little anxious knowing our afternoon together was coming to an end. That's why I wasn't stopping kissing her at the same time as we talked. SAB: Tomorrow I have to travel again... Are we okay? - She said looking at me with her eyes. YO: Ask me that... SAB: You know it's true... I was also dying to see you, to write to you...- It seemed she was confessing. YO: You didn't respond jeje SAB: I don't want the bond to break, but you know it can't happen again... YO: You said the same thing last time... That's a mess... SAB: But now it's different... YO: Ah yes? Why? SAB: We had our moment together, free, without having to give explanations to anyone... It was true. It was an authentic moment. YO: Right now I feel like I don't want you to leave... I want to keep seeing you... She looked at me with something like pity in her eyes. SAB: It's very hard for me to have a close friendship with Mar again after what I did. But if someday you're alone and I'm not in her life, what I feel now is that I would be there for you... A knot formed in my throat. It couldn't be so sweet... And I couldn't help but get a little misty-eyed. SAB: I know, I'm sure, at this moment, that if you let time pass, you'll realize you still love Mar like always... That anger is going away from you. Well, you're going to grow haha.- She exclaimed with some excitement.
I: What I feel for her won't change what I feel for you.
She was laughing at me.
I: I'm telling you seriously... Do you think it's not possible to love more than one person?
SAB: Shh, stop!- She said, silencing me with her finger on my lips. How beautiful, god...
It was clear she didn't believe that was possible. Not like me who contemplated it.
She kissed my hand.
SAB: Haha, god...
She smiled and looked beautiful doing so.
We had changed and were still embracing. I don't know why, but a song by Cerati came to mind. Crime.
And knowing I wouldn't see her for a long time, I got down again.
I: When are you coming back? I'm already missing you...
SAB: I'm not even halfway through my postgraduate studies... Don't think about it. Promise me you'll think about what I said!
I: Yes, bombón... It's crazy that you don't believe me when I tell you. But it's like that.
SAB: I believe you, handsome... Mmmk.- She sucked on my mouth.
I sighed deeply.
It was incredible what had happened. If they had told me when I got up, I wouldn't have believed it even if I was crazy.
I: Then... Are we okay? Won't you disappear from the face of the earth?
SAB: No, but good... You know!
I: You'll always be in my plans...
She made a face.
SAB: And also in mine... But think about what I said, take your time. You'll see that I'm right.
I: What if you're not?
SAB: Who knows... Life takes so many turns...- She exclaimed from the depths of her soul.
I understood everything.
I hugged her again and she squeezed me tight. It was the only person, after Mara, who showed me a feeling like that.
And it seemed like a movie... The instrumental of that theme kept playing in my head.
She was right that we should look to the future. I had proposed doing so that week. Being well with myself first, to be able to be well with others. I understood her point, clearly. But I still thought love was independent of people.
That's what I believed and wasn't... necessary that he put me to discuss it.
YO: And are you going to be fine?.- I said with some stings in the chest.
SAB: Now that I saw you, yes…-
YO: I love you, Sabri…- I exclaimed, pressing my lips on her neck. That tasty smell she had was going to kill me.
SAB: And I you... Now go, before we end up again on the couch jaja
YO: Don't tease...
SAB: Jaja no! It's not necessary... Because at any moment the janitor comes...
YO: Can I write to you?
SAB: No need... I don't want you to get confused... I know you're thinking about me...
YO: Well, but when all this passes... You'll see that I was right...
SAB: Jaja who would have said that under that macho attitude, there was a person so tender...- She told, tempted.
YO: Jaja... I'd like to take you even to the airport...
SAB: No, really, I'm telling you, it's not necessary, nor prudent.-
She spoke to me while adjusting her shirt and jacket.
At every instant, she was more installed in my head, that it was true we could have our moment.
It was what I was waiting for. Obvious that I would miss her, but I felt a great relief inside.
YO: Once you see...
SAB: I'll write to you when I get there, but okay, you made me promise...
YO: Okay... Neither will I bother you...- I said with some resignation.
SAB: I know you'll be for me... Stay calm, I know it.
YO: Yes... I understand your point perfectly.
Chhuuiik was heard loud and clear.
SAB: You're skinny... Start eating!
YO: You're divine.- I told her, laughing.
SAB: Tonto!
Each second was being used as if it were the last.
She was caressing me, giving me kisses.
In other circumstances, it would be very clear that things would be totally different.
YO: Hope your neighbors didn't hear us...
SAB: I don't care...- She said with a piquant face.
YO: Jaja... Beautiful...
It was incredible but we kept eating each other's mouth. Neither of us let go.
It would be because in the end, we knew that at least for a long time it wouldn't happen again.
It was sad to think about it. But Sabrina had reason.
We both had reason. Maybe I just had to let time take care of things.
I wasn't wrong in thinking that I had that conflict in my head.
Actually, it could have been two conflicts. Since things with Sabrina were also bothering me.
And now I was starting to see it differently. More relieved.
SAB: Good, go ahead!.- She said biting her lower lip.
YO: Good... I wouldn't want...
SAB: Come on, don't make it hard for me...-
YO: Why don't we spend the rest of the day together? It's just today...
She stayed looking at me with tender eyes.
SAB: Nothing would make me happier... I swear! But it would be too much... Already what we did was very nice! Come on!.- Almost as if she were asking please.
I understood, but felt it was a shame. We could have stretched out our moment a little more. It was something genuine, not just a slip-up.
Besides, Mara had also been responsible for Sabrina starting to have problems with me.
And I didn't understand how she still thought everything I did was like betraying her.
Whatever it was, what had developed between the two of us wasn't just a simple fling.
YO: Good... I love you, red! Mmmuachp.- I gave her a kiss
SAB: Nobody has ever called me that before jaja.. But I like it!
YO: Don't?.- I laughed
SAB: Me too, take care, see you later.- She exclaimed tenderly.
I felt trapped by her essence, her smell, her beauty. But I didn't want to make it hard for her either.
YO: Take care, seeing you was...- The words got stuck in my throat.
SAB: I know, it's the same for me.-
We gave each other a last kiss, leaving everything behind.
The truth is that I felt my lips swollen from all the kissing.
We merged into a long sigh.
It was time to go already.
Her gaze began to weaken again like that night.
I didn't like seeing her like this. My throat closed up.
We went to the entrance. I couldn't conceive that I was leaving already. It was something crude walking, watching the image of the door getting bigger.
She wasn't saying anything. I knew her and knew she was trying to keep a good face. Those stiff faces because Before the slightest movement of your facial muscles, you break down. Why? Why does it have to be like that? I would ask myself. A very sad goodbye was coming. Again.
21 comentários - Capítulo 15 Mi prima, Mara 3
Siento que todo se le va a complicar aún más a Jonás por este encuentro con Sabrina, que aunque lo liberó de muchas cosas que tenía reprimidas en el pecho, le va a generar problemas en su trabajo y con Mara...
De resto, un excelente capítulo, se sintió que avanzó la historia, quizás no en periodo temporal pero si en desarrollo de situaciones que eran necesarias hablar y "resolver".
Ese señor Thompson, no será Homero Thompson??
De lo anteriores capítulos no me gusto para nada esa "modestia" o "humildad extrema" de Jonás cuando se consiguió a Fernanda...
La verdad, ese papel que está tomando Jonás como que el es el culpable de todo lo que pasó y que tiene que perdonar a todos los que metieron su puñal ahí para que Mara se desatara más y que hasta le metiera los cuernos a Jonás y la incitaban a "garcarlo" como dicen ustedes (para los venezolanos sería montarle los cuernos) (Fernanda, Gabi y la misma Mara con su accionar) y que Jonás las perdone a todas así tan facilmente, pero que a la vez se tire toda la mierda encima el mismo, hasta el punto de tener esos ataques de panico, y que a Fernanda la exima de toda culpa y que hasta le hable bonito, solo le faltó decirle que si quería que llevara a Franco otra vez a la casa de ella y que el llevaba a Mara...
Y aclaro, Jonás es culpable de mucho de lo que pasó, lo he repetido muchas veces, que confundiera las cosas con Sabrina como una salida para poder fingir demencia al darse cuenta de todo lo que estaba haciendo Mara y de los pequeños cambios que iba mostrando, y que el se daba cuenta pero miraba a otro lado para no "negarle ninguna experiencia y que luego se frustrara". A Jonás le faltaron pantalones en esos momentos, y para seguir cagandola llega y se encapricha con Sabrina como una forma de soportar que Franco la reventara a Mara a punta de verga.
Pero a loque iba, como dije antes con respecto ese encuentro con Fernanda en el supermercado. Yo hubiesesido Jonás, quizá no hubiese insultado a Fernanda, pero ni por el carajo le hablo en ese tono tan Happy y exculpandola de todo, si es que no quería hacer una escenita pues simplemente no le dirijo la palabra, o le devuelvo el saludo y media vuelta como si no la hubiese visto.
Y ¿por qué? se preguntaran algunos, y hasta pensarán que sería grosero e infantil/inmaduro.
Pues simplemente porque Fernanda no empujó un poquito como ella quiso excusarse, Fernanda cada vez que podía le carcomía la cabeza a Mara para que engañara a Jonás, para que siguiera viendo a Franco a espaldas de este. Le comía la cabeza a Jonás diciendole cosas de Mara para que este perdiera los pocos cabales que mantenía y se soltara e hiciera desastres igual que Mara, para que en algún momento si Jonás saltaba por algo que Mara hiciera y a el no le gustara no le pudiera decir nada o esta decir "tu hiciste esto u aquello" o "Pero vos te cogiste a mis amigas" (Como terminó pasando, aún cuando Jonás no quería y fue la misma Mara quien lo impulso a hacerlo en el caso de Sabri y Fer).
Fernanda demostró que a ella le importaba un pepino si Jonás terminaba sufriendo, al fin y al cabo ella era amiga de Mara no de él!
Fernanda quería que Mara terminara con Franco para ella regodearse en que logró pervertir a su "amiga la santa" y quizá tenerlo y probarlo de vez en cuando...
Por esas y muchas mas razones que no comento porque si no nunca acabaría, yo no hubiese actuado como actuó Jonás con Fernanda. Repito si acaso, le respondo el "hola" y hasta ahí... Que se vaya a recagar y verle la cara de boludo a otro pero a mi no!
Y si me emocioné de más y llegué a expresarme de una forma agresiva o con bronca como ustedes dicen en Argentina, me disculpo, pero por eso dije que era una opiniónmuy personal.
Y lo que terminó de molestarme y me quemó la cabeza aún más, fue que al final del capítulo otra vez quedó Jonás auto flagelandose y martirizandose cualpandose de todo y de mala persona porque Mara se sintio "ofendida" porque Jonás andaba caliente cada vez que la veía (ojo que yo estoy de acuerdo en que la cagó, porque núnca le aclaró que por el momento se sentía caliente ycon unas ganas brutales de tener sexo con ella).
Y la otra de pendeja se ilusionó sola y confundió las cosas y terminó haciendose la victima. Aaah pero si Fernanda la llama para que se la garchen el novio de ella, Brian y Franco, ahí si va corriendo y le dice gracias amiguita del alma te quiero mucho,tu si te preocupas realmente por mi, y quieres arruinar mi relación con mi novio, y volverme una puta ninfomana que lo que desea es que la dejen llena de leche y con el orto sangrando... Para Mara, Fernanda si es una buena persona y la mejor amiga, que si es por ella la entrega a un proxeneta para que la convierta en prostituta porque ese era el objetivo de Fernanda pervertir a la amiguita "santa" del grupo ya que con Pao no pudo... Jonás es cambio es lo peor y ahí si reacciona y se mete en el papel de victima que desde que Jonás le dijo que lo de ellos se acababa, ella quiso tomar. Con Fernanda nunca se mostró una palabra de reclamo o de molestia por parte de Mara.
El capitulo anterior me hizo molestar mucho, pero es por mi forma de ser como ya expliqué, por eso no quería comentar, porque con algunas cosas soy extremadamente radical, yo también quisiera que Jonás y Mara volvieran a estar juntos, pero no así, con Jonás en ese papel de auto-martirisarse, de culparse de todo hasta el punto de los ataques de panico, me pareció absurdo.
Yo quisiera saber que opinaría Sabrina si Jonás le cuenta todo lo que el sabe que hizo Mara, todo lo que complotó con Fernanda y Gabi, lo de garchar sin forros sin decirle nada, lo de querer que Franco le reventara el orto (porque ya tienen que aceptarlo los que dicen que no, Mara quería que Franco le dejara ese ano chorreando leche y sangre, y por eso se lo estuvo preparando con un mes de antelación //y no me vengan con el "Ay pero a la final no se dió" porque que no se haya dado no quita que esa era la intenciónde ella y de no haber Jonás mandado todo al traste, Mara no hubiese tardado mas de 2 semanas en volver a ver a Franco a espaldas de Jonás y volver a coger sin forros entregando todo hasta orinar leche, cagar leche y vomitar leche. Y yo se que esto es pura y llana especulación, pero todo indicaba que hacia allá iba la historia, por algo hiphop tenía esos capítulos "no canonicos" donde justamente ocurría todo eso//) todo lo que hizo a espaldas de Jonás esperando a que este estuviese dormido o que saliera de la casa de Fernanda y que permitia que lo grabaran y todo lo que hablaba con Fernanday que cada vez que esta le insinuaba que cogiera con Franco a espaldas de él, Mara lo que hacía era fingir demencia pero en ningún momento la corto de raíz para que dejara de joder con eso. Como he dicho Jonás sabe demasiadas cosas que hizo Mara y que nadie tiene el conocimiento de que el lo sabe (solo Mara y eso solo comoun 30 o 40 % de todo lo que sabe Jonásy que sigue teniendo reprimido en el pecho).
Si Jonás quiere tener la minima y remota posibilidad de volver con Mara tiene que soltar todo lo que sabe, pero por otro lado en el momento en que eso ocurra, ya no quedaría nada en esa relación... Ojo esto es mi opinión, y vuelvo a repetir que en serio yo quisiera que volvieran, pero siempre lo he visto sumamente dificil por todo esto que dije. Y la otra es ni acercarse a Fernanda otra vez, para mi esa es otra trava para la reconciliación de Jonás y Mara; yo núnca aceptaría volver a compartir con la amiga de mi pareja la cual np hacia sino comerle la cabeza para que me pusiera los cuernos sin saber que yo escuchaba y que luego con tremenda cara de tabla me hablaba bonito y negaba todo y juraba que nunca le diría a mi novia esas cosas. Y como ya dije, Mara no va a dejar su amistad con Fernanda, por Jonás, por mucho que diga amarlo, bueno eso también es mi opinión no se que piensan los demás.
Increíble lo que escribís, chabón.
La mejor cábala de todos los tiempos!
Mi mente aun no concibe que el hecho de que voy a coger con él y a solas.
Se que me estoy pasando.
Encima estoy caminando desnuda y con un plug anal metido en el orto.
¡Dios!
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