ama de casa crossdresser, 3 años de cambios

Although I started wearing my mom's clothes since childhood, I had my first homosexual experience at 27 years old, never gave up crossdressing and haven't had penetrative sex with a woman in the last 7 years, in the last 3 I think it were the most profound changes. I started wanting to see myself more feminine and looking for that femininity, although the sexual relationships I had were very few, I can count them on my fingers: the man I met at cs and took me to a hotel, a neighbor who invited me to his house, a BDSM friend and another gentleman. But despite that they were intense 3 years, going out as a girl, attending an event, reducing testosterone levels, being almost always in feminine underwear, private things for getting rid of masculine things like sitting down to pee or not masturbating like a man. I'm about to take the next step, just got an appointment with a doctor to take hormones. I have many nerves and fear, don't know what will happen and if I'll achieve some changes, if I'll look good, how it will affect my daily life....uff I'm scared