Me canse de ser la gorda fea!

I have 29 years old, and for a long time I felt very ugly because I was chubby, because it didn't happen to me before when I was younger!. But something changed in me and part of this is due to the page that my friend recommended, one day I went to browse, of course the first thing I looked for were chubby girls and I loved them!!!, how beautiful women I thought, and then I said to myself they're not very different from me and there I was in my first reality slap. another event like this that changed my days is knowing a man through a social network that barely knew me, he told me I was authoritarian, repressed and capricious, it shocked me because if I am like that we talk a lot and I couldn't stop thinking about the things he said and doing a little online therapy, I realized I get hot under authority figures and very much to my regret I would like to be submissive in bed, although I've been told more than once I'm a bit of a bossy pants ja!. two years ago I'm in a relationship, never cheated on him, and always stayed quite content with my sex life, I'd like it more often to be honest, but I can't complain, but still my most important conflict is the need to feel beautiful, I've always been a bit rejected, well no idea, I think it's my thing, since I realized for a long time I've been ugly and haven't noticed what I provoked in men. this week things got crazy and I think now I see them. like a handsome boy who got on the train and when I saw him the first thing I thought was he's too pretty to bother with me, that same guy rubbed his member against my hand during the whole trip...I stayed hard as a rock..I couldn't react or even look at him, I had crazy desires to touch him but didn't dare...so things went on. I woke up to this world...that I want to share with you in the form of an intimate diary maybe, I know maybe this first post will be boring but have faith I'll get better and hope to Some day learn to upload photos or have a good friend do it for me and they'll see that I'm not very ugly!!! Kisses submissive and tender... Paola[/font]]