Before you start reading. This isn't a story or anything to 'get warmed up'. So if it's not what you expected, don't bother commenting. I only made this post so that someone who was able to pass through the same thing as me and regretted it can tell me things.Hey guys and girls. First of all this would be a post to see if you can help me. I think this is just not the right place but it's the first thing that came to mind since there are people with quite some experience here.
Let me tell you. I joined political party X. Nothing, all my friends were cool. We were all dudes and nothing. After we said goodbye, one of them started sending me whatapps messages. I responded and he invited me to his place.
So we started talking. I already knew what he wanted. I had given him a sign on whatsapp beforehand.
Well, I'm a virgin and 19 years old. Never in my fucking life did anything. Just chapar, maybe sometimes.
With the dude we started chapar and went to bed. This isn't going to be too detailed.
Obviously, since it was my first time (between quotes because we didn't make it to third base), I was like scared. I WANT TO MAKE IT CLEAR THAT THE GUY DIDN'T FORCE ME TO DO ANYTHING I DIDN'T WANT TO. We did what we did.
Now yooo have a super guilt for what I did. My parents didn't educate me to do these things. Post that I don't know what to do.
On top of it, the topic is that I'm going to keep seeing the dude. But I'll make it clear that I never want to do anything again.
Post that I'm scared. I'm Catholic, not too practicing, but I believe a lot. And post that I'm scared. I don't want this to happen again. Onda, I don't know what to do.
If you guys are cool, please, leave me some thoughts on what I should do. If you have any questions, ask them and I'll answer. Please, I don't know if my idea is asking for help, but I feel like trash for what I did
Anyway, as the saying goes: done is done.
Thanks if you read until here. If you want to comment, do it, no drama. The only thing I ask is good vibes.
Thanks friends of P! Post. I needed to unload. Many thanks.
Juanma!
2 comentários - Ayuda. Tuve mi primera vez y me siento mal animicamente.
Quizá sea una etapa por la que estás pasando, identifica si es tu caso, sino vive de manera responsable tu sexualidad y aceptate tal como eres, el reprimirse no es bueno, uno puede explotar! , en cuanto si tu papás no te educaron para eso o si eres católico creyente.. Bueno eso es otro tema ya que no puedes vivir a expensas de lo que los demás quieran, vive según tus normas y creencias, vive tu vida con tus propias convicciones, pero de manera responsable claro está. Muchos ánimos!!!