Wet dreams with my wife

It's been a while since my wife and I haven't had sex, so many negatives that I don't even bother anymore. Maybe she didn't like it very much. Maybe he finished quickly. Is she small? I wish someone else would have sex with her and make her enjoy it, then come back and humiliate me, making me feel the loser I am, showing me how insufficient I was for her. That they punish me for not making her enjoy it. That I should be a girl, that she put on a strap-on and take me, or better yet, come with her boyfriend and show me how they have sex and why her boyfriend humiliate me by making me his slut