First gay experience + what I'm looking for today

Hello! How are you? I'm coming to tell you about my first experience with another man. Currently, I am 32 years old, have a normal body, tending to athletic, beard and hair on the body, and not effeminate. Additionally, I've been in a relationship with a girl for years now. Since I was around 20, gay sex has caught my attention, but never (not even today) do I like a man or get attracted to one. I always jerked off or at most had a video call masturbation on some page. About three and a half years ago, I got up very masturbator bad and entered here where I met a skinny guy. I went to his house and we did a blow job, we fondled each other, he sucked my ass (he made me fly away so clear that it had) and finally took my cum. It was the first time I blew a cock, and although it gave me a little nausea, I got too hot. When he sucked my ass (I was 4), I felt such pleasure that I felt completely surrendered to him doing anything. Plus, I asked him to do my ass but he didn't. I always felt very bad, but what that dude did to me made me doubt my tastes in bed jajaja. After that, I never went back to having relationships, I never got motivated again even though I still jerk off thinking about screwing with a dude. That's why I'm now looking for a dude who is on the same level as me. Not gay, just someone who catches my attention, we get our needs when we want and each one does their own thing. I don't look for effeminate or gay guys. More than anything, other curious ones like me. Leave some contact in the comments and I'll talk to you!