Does this happen to someone else?

Hello, how are you? This is my first post and I would like to ask for your opinion on something that has been bothering me for a while. I was always shy and didn't socialize much, but from the age of 15 (when I started with my first girlfriend) I became very outgoing, went out partying and met many girls, so I started having a more active sex life. Everything was going well until the pandemic forced me to stay at home alone. As I had no one to live with and couldn't go out, I got into the world of porn and started enjoying all its varieties. I always considered myself heterosexual, so I never went beyond watching straight porn, but then I started feeling curious and little by little (and with guilt) I started watching transsexual and gay porn that at first excited me but later an idea of guilt would enter my mind and I'd end up watching hetero porn haha. However, lately when I'm watching myself, ideas from the videos come to my mind and I get a desire to watch gay porn, even to the point where I want to see a penis live and in person haha. Then guilt enters my mind and I change my thoughts. Those intrusive thoughts were so strong that I ended up wearing my sisters' and cousins' clothes. As time passed, it became something normal for me to accept that I only like wearing some outfits (since genetically I have slightly wide hips jeje) but not consider myself gay, maybe curious jeje, but all those ideas go away when I'm done. I would like to know your opinion and maybe get some advice by message.