Confusion, wanting to try, first time

Hello to all, haha it's rare that I'm writing this but good because that's how I feel, maybe someone else will pass through the same or goes through it. It turns out that I have no desire to try being with a man. I'm very womanly, dominant and always do well in that sense; but it's been a while (quite) since a fantasy has been spinning in my head. To be with an experienced man who would make me enjoy being the fag let's say, without offending anyone. It's rare because I don't like men physically, nor do I go for kisses with men, so it's all sexual. I get excited thinking about being with an active man, making me enjoy and discover sex between men. I also get excited about the idea of dressing up as a woman sometimes; it's like an alter ego or part of me that wants to experience that. The post is to be able to talk to someone; exchange ideas, but every time I think about this, it's inevitable not to get excited. Hug.